It occurred to me yesterday that while I’ve been writing this blog for 7 years, Michael was only alive for one and a half of them. How crazy is that? He is so much a part of In Jennie’s Kitchen. His love and support from wherever his spirit exists fuels my inspiration to keep going on here, a silent muse.
I found that thought very comforting, more so than I could’ve ever expected. Aside from my mama, he was my biggest cheerleader, often believing in me more than I did myself. I wish he could see the beautiful girls our daughters are growing into. In the case of Isabella, I suppose I should say woman. She continues to amaze me. We’re often oil and water, battling to fuse into a happy unit, but when we do come together I just know that kid is going to be my best friend one day.
I say one day because as a parent, especially a single mom, I have to tow that delicate line between friend and guardian. The one she loves, and hates, sometimes all at once. I’m seeing the hormones loom in Virginia, too. Actually, anyone who knows me in real life, knows Virginia has always been a bundle of hormones. She’s a potent combination of her mama and papa.
I captured these photos on one of our evening walks along the Ashokan Reservoir. It’s such a sweet privilege to live so close to such beauty. I’ve started running again, and wish me luck that I can keep this momentum going. Lately I feel like there’s just never enough hours in the day to get work done, be there for the girls, and be there for myself. It has been a challenging summer having them both home, and no camp. And yet, I wouldn’t trade it for the world. It feels like a great gift to have given them a summer free of schedules. Almost unheard of these days for children.
Saturday morning we leave for Cape Cod. We’re all so ready for this vacation, me more so than previous years. The sweet, salty scent of the beach is palpable. I’m not yet sure, but feeling like I might take a little break from writing my Thankful Thursdays posts while we’re away. You know me, I’m not going to commit to not doing it in case the urge to be here and write strikes.
There’s lots in the queue for the recipe part of the site. I’ve been working like a mad woman to get some recipes I’m really excited to share scheduled for when I’m away. Just wanted to let you all know that if you don’t see an update here in this spot, don’t worry—I’m just soaking up some much needed sun and energy to refuel my soul.