one last dance


 

259 Comments

  • FoodforMyFamily

    Jen, words can’t begin to tell you how heartbroken I am for you. It’s in these moments that I wish I could do more, be closer, take the pain and numb it a bit before it hits you. I am praying for you and those sweet girls and wrapping my arms around you from over here. Please know we’re thinking about you, praying for you and care about you.

  • Elissapr

    Jennifer…
    My heartfelt condolences. I remember watching this video when you first posted it. It put a big smile on my face. Now? It even has greater resonance for those of who are connected to you. Much strength to you over the days and weeks to come.

  • corrie

    my heart is breaking for you right now. I just watch that and think it’s so unfair. Why do things have to happen like they have and when you have a young family. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I am just so sorry.
    Corriexxxxxxxxxxxx

  • SMITH BITES

    oh Jennie . . . i ache for you and there is nothing i can do to help ease the pain of what you’re going thru at this moment. i am so very, very sorry . . . there just isn’t anything else to say . . .

  • Varda

    I am so sorry, so shocked and dismayed. I know there is nothing I can say or do. But hugs anyway. My heart is breaking for you and your family.
    Sudden deadly heart attacks run in my husband’s family (his father, one brother, grandfather, many uncles, cousins) so I unfortunately have a lot of experience with how devastating this is.
    I am so, so sorry.

  • Janet

    My heart goes out to you. This video is a beautiful treasure. I wish I could turn back the hands of time for you… please know that true prayers are lifting you up.

  • kamran siddiqi

    My heart is aching for you and the girls, Jennie. I can’t help but weep because I know what it’s like to lose a loved one unexpectedly. Sending you and the girls lots of love and prayers.

  • Allie

    I woke up to see this video and I am crying every time I watch it. After logging of Twitter I thought of you and your family in deep sadness last night as I fell asleep. Sending so much love your way.

  • Xai Losito

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I couldn’t even imagine what you’re going through. Just hang in there, there’s a whole virtual community out here for you and I am praying for you and you family.

  • Mandy Unruh

    I’ve enjoyed your blog and you have been on my mind yesterday and today. I am so sorry to hear of your devastating loss. Please know my love and prayers are with you and your family.

  • BROOKS SAUTNER

    ENJOY LAURA’S FOOD BLOG ON FACEBOOK AND SAW THAT HER COHORT, JENNIE ANOTHER FOOD BLOGGER HAD LOST HER HUSBAND SUDDENLY. THIS SOCIAL WORLD IS SMALL SO I WOULD LIKE TO SEND MY SINCERE CONDOLENCES TO JENNIE AND HER FAMILY. I AM WONDERING IF THE SHORT VIDEO ABOVE IS OF JENNIE’S HUSBAND. IF SO, WHAT A TREASURE.
    BROOKS

  • Jen L.

    I cannot even begin to tell you how sorry I am or how much my heart breaks for you and your family. I know it’s not much, but please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

  • Teresa

    I am so very sorry for your loss. Praying for you and your precious little ones. What a beautiful memory you have to be able to share.

  • Tracy

    We’ve never met but we know a lot of the same people on twitter…please know that I have been praying for you and your family and I am so sorry…

  • Catherine

    Jennifer…
    A friend of mine forwarded me your tweet. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. My husband passed away suddenly 4 years ago (he was 34, I was 31, our kids were 5,3, and 1). This year I started theWiddahood.com (a social support network for anyone who has lost a significant other) because I had such a hard time finding support and I didn’t want anyone else to go through the same thing. I know we don’t know each other, but if you ever need someone to email and vent to at 3 AM, my email address is catherine@thewiddahood.com. I did my share of that in the beginning.
    Even though we are strangers…I’m thinking of you and your family.
    Catherine

  • Kristen

    Just last week we were tweeting about wishing for time to slow down. Now I just wish it could be reversed for you so you and your girls can have your husband with you again.
    Prayers, hugs and love to you. Please know we are here for you for whatever you need.

  • Tickled Red

    Jennie I am so sorry for the loss that you and your girls are going through. I wish that there was something I could do for you. Sending you love 🙁

  • Liamoran

    Jennie, I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I love this video. Obviously, I’ve never met you and I don’t know your family, but I am so saddened by this. Sending lots of love to you and your family.

  • Natalie

    Jenni, I am so sorry to hear about your husband. That video was so sweet, and I’m sitting here in tears at such a tragic loss. I pray for time to quickly heal your wounds and for you and your girls to be surrounded by love.

  • Kelly R.

    I am so sorry for your loss. I have a greater grief for your daughters. I lost my father in January. I will always be his little girl and will always deeply miss him. I know your girls will feel the same way. Give them double the love. They need it. I don’t know you but my heart is with you.

  • Nellene

    Hi Jenny,
    I read about your sudden loss on THE NEST community site. I am truly sorry for your extreme tragedy with your husband. I was once a widow (suddenly) at age 37 left with our 12 year old son. Take one minute at a time, one breath at a time. My heart aches for you and your family. If I knew there was something to say that would lessen the pain I would. If ever you’d like to contact me please feel free. Much love and support…

  • Ann

    Jennifer – I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my prayers. While we aren’t here in person – the food bloggers are with you in spirit….
    You are in my heart~
    Ann

  • Esti

    This video has so much in it. What a gift to have had such love in your life and what blessings you and your girls will always know to have had such a wonderful father.

  • Sarah

    As a daughter whose dad died from a sudden heart attack let me say that I am so sorry that your children had to join this club. Your daughters will cherish these memories, it’s wonderful that you were able to keep them for them. My heart goes out to you as a partner, may your love bring you strength to get through the days
    to come.

  • Amybcleary

    We have not met, but like many others I have enjoyed your blog and tweets. Also, like many, I cried when I watched this. Sometimes, life is really and truly not fair. My very best to you,your daughters and the extended family and friends.

  • FritosnFoie

    I know there are no words. Just want you to know how sorry I am for your loss, and how I am sending the best possible vibes and good wishes to you and your family.

  • Andrea

    Tears are welling up in my eyes as I heard the news. I’m so sorry for your loss. Through this video, I can see what a wonderful father and husband he was. Sending you and your girls much prayers, best wishes, and warm hugs.

  • Snippets of Thyme

    I saw disturbing tweets today. I don’t know you but I watched your video. I cried as if you were a dear friend. I am so sorry. I wanted you to know how sorry I truly am for what is happening to you and your family.

  • Cristie Ritz King

    There are no words. I just want to add to the list of people who love you and wish they could help shoulder this pain.

  • Brandee

    No words can ease your pain. But there are so many people out here that are praying for you and your family.

  • Gina

    We may not know each other, but my heart goes out to you. I am sorry for you loss. No words can make things better, but know that you have people that love and care for you.
    You are in my thoughts and prays.

  • Sue Zumout

    The beautiful dance brought me to tears. My heart is so heavy for you and your family. I’ve been thinking about you all day and will continue to do so. Please take care of yourself, Jennifer.

  • Stacy Libby

    Jennifer, my sincere condolences for your loss. I hope the memories of love, happiness and dances will be in your heart forever. Sincerely, Stacy

  • Kelly

    So terribly sorry for your loss. Words from a stranger might not mean much, but these with my heartfelt sympathy are all I have to give.

  • T.R.

    Love and prayers for you and your girls. I’m pretty new to your blog but I got the context from the other comments. Bless you.

  • Patty

    Words are difficult and sometimes of no use…but I will think of you often…and remember you in prayers…

  • Kim

    What a beautiful video. Your daughter will always have this beautiful video in her heart along with all the other wonderful loving memories you have all shared. I don’t need to know you to feel your excruciating pain. Please know that you and your family are in so many of our thoughts and prayers. I pray for peace and strength for you all.

  • John F. Safranek

    Jennifer, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. You and the girls are in my prayers.
    John

  • Lora

    Bella Jennie…my heart aches for your loss. You are in my thoughts constantly and I’m so sorry for the horrible loss of Mikey. Sending love to you and the girls and many hugs. If there is any thing you need…I’m here for you. xoxoxo
    Lora

  • P Hunt

    Jenny, I am so sorry for your loss! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your girls. The video is amazing………..

  • andrea

    I am so sorry for your loss and am praying for you & your family. What a great moment you captured on film!

  • Elizabeth @ Saffron Lane

    You don’t know me, but I stumbled upon this from your Twitter post and it has brought me to tears for you. Your tweet about your heart breaking into a million pieces resonates so strongly with me. I recently lost someone very close and remember that feeling all too well. The only comfort I can share is that I promise it won’t always be *quite* this painful. The memories will sustain you and, no matter what, he’ll always be close. Sending a big hug to you and your family.

  • Merry George

    Jennie, I am Merry Jennifer’s mom and I am so sorry for the loss of your husband. The video of The Last Dance is now embedded in my mind. Just know that you are loved by so many people who are at a loss of words to comfort you.

  • Denise @ Creative Kitchen

    Jennifer,
    Words cannot adequately convey the grief I’m feeling for you! Years ago, before we married…my husband was in a near fatal car accident. I never quite recovered from almost losing him. It forever changes a person. Surgery lasted hours, he lost over half his blood and he battled it out in ICU for 3 days. I couldn’t eat, sleep…it was like a bad dream.
    I know you are in shock, numb, disbelief. I wish I could fix it, change it, take it back. When I heard the news today…my day took a turn & has not “righted” itself since.
    Just know I am holding you and your girls in my heart and my prayers. I am so, so sorry for your loss!

  • Denise

    You are such an incredible woman, I adore you, I cry for you. I hope your girls provide you with comfort through this time. If you need anything Jen I would love to help/give. I’m so sorry for your loss.

  • Jen

    At a time like this, words are so inadequate. They fail to fully express my sympathy or to even begin to comfort you for your loss. I will offer them nonetheless: I am deeply sorry for your loss.

  • Bee | Rasa Malaysia

    I’m deeply saddened by the news when rachael of Fijimama told me! Be strong and much love, hugs, and kisses to you and your girls! Take care.

  • Terri Wallace

    God bless you and your family. I am so, so sorry. There are no words, just please know that if tears were blessings, you have so many coming your way, as we all weep with you.

  • sk

    I just heard about your loss and I am so, so sad for you and your girls. What incredible devastation. May you find peace, soon.

  • Jacqueline

    I do not know you, but I read Shauna’s site and read of your loss. My mom was 39 and I was six when my dad died. She always said it was the first time she ever felt her age. There are really no words that can comfort and take away the horror of this pain. Your DNA changes. Whoever you were ceases to exist and eventually the new begins in its place.
    I want to hold that this may not be the last dance. I do not want this post to be about me at all, but to give a ray of hope to your story and the story of your kiddos, let me share this: This year I have been praying for a visitation from my father in a dream to comfort me as I came to terms with my infertility and the promise I made at six to have his grandchild. No dream came for the longest time, and then one night he came to me and danced with me for three minutes–that was all he had–in my dream. I could smell him. He kissed me. He was there in all the ways that matter, and of course, still in the one way that matter most he was not.
    This is my deepest prayer for you and your children: May he come to you in your dreams and comfort you and dance again.
    Peace and light,
    another sojourner on the grief road

  • Vicki

    Jennifer,
    I am relatively new to your fantastic blog and am now a loyal reader. Today I happen to stumble upon glutenfreegirl.com and read the entry about your loss. My heart sank and tears welled up in my eyes. I lost a parent when I was 6 years old, so I know what you are going through. Be strong. Thinking of you and sending positive vibes your way.

  • Laura

    I came here from Gluten free girl. I am sure it won’t help at all, but please know that there is one more person out there who is sending you an embrace. May time heal your terrible pain.

  • Gloria

    I am so very sorry for your loss. My heart aches for you and your family.
    My thoughts and prayers are with you.

  • Jennifer

    Jennifer, I am terribly sorry for your loss. Although we don’t know each other I follow your site and you on twitter and I can not express truly how sad I am for you. I send thoughts and prayers your way.

  • Jo

    There are no words to make this any easier, but I hope knowing people care and are thinking of you make you smile even if for just a second. My prayers are with you and your family.

  • Linda Elsik

    Jennie,
    I was where you are two years ago. His ring on a chain around my neck. I am here. I survived, but it’s never the same. What helped me at the beginning-I walked. Every day. The endorphins help keep you out of depression and the walk allows you time to cry. Try Hickman’s “Healing After Loss” if you need inspiration. Even after two years, I still read it.

  • Grace

    I am so very sorry for your loss, Jennie. You and your daughters will be in my thoughts. I wish you peace and healing.
    What a lovely memory that video will provide for you and your girls, and it reveals so much about who he was. Thank you for sharing that with us.

  • Pip

    I am so sorry for your loss, I can’t imagine your grief. I will make a pie for my husband on Friday and Thank God for him and pray for your healing.

  • Susan

    Dear Jennie,
    You don’t know me, we’ve never met. But you’ve graciously allowed me to get to know you through your writing here. And my heart is breaking for you and your family.
    I wish there was some way I could reach out to comfort you, to make it better or easier for you in some way. I hope it helps you to know that you matter to a lot of people out here.

  • Andrea

    I saw this the other day and was unable to comment for some reason, now I am glad I did not as I was totally oblivious to what you were experiencing. I am so sorry for your loss. Please lean on those who surround you with love, now and always.

  • ciaochowlinda

    I look at this video and see love – the love your husband had for your daughter and undoubtedly for you too. How lucky you are to have this beautiful reminder of him.

  • anneliesz

    Jennifer, I’m so sorry for your loss and will keep you in my prayers. My dad died unexpectedly last year from a heart attack several months before my wedding. I felt blindsided and at the same time found comfort in the “just being” with friends and family. No words could make it right. They still can’t. I’m sending you a virtual hug and planning a peanut butter pie for Friday.

  • Robin @ Farewell, Stranger

    Jennie, I came via Shauna’s blog. I’m so, so sorry. This video is beautiful and heart breaking. What a wonderful thing to have, though I’m sure it’s incredibly painful to watch.
    Thinking of you and your family.

  • Keryn

    There are tears streaming down my face in Australia. There will be peanut butter pie down under tomorrow.

  • Niri

    Seeing this I tear thinking of my 2 girls. I am so sorry and here is hoping time and memories help you get through this

  • Gabi

    Words just don’t seem to say enough when the world goes sideways and your heart suffers such a blow. I know that I am just a name on the internet here but in my own kitchen I shed many tears on your behalf. I send you light and the hope of some comfort in the days to come. xo

  • Alex Ryan

    My husband and children will be having peanut butter cream pie tomorrow evening. My deepest sympathies to you. Thank you for sharing with us and reminding me of how precious today is.

  • Janet

    I am so terribly sorry for your loss. You and your daughters are in my thoughts and prayers. I will definitely make this peanut butter pie for Mikey and for my family with an extra dose of love.

  • Kelly

    This has absolutely brought me to tears reading this Jennie and my heart just breaks for you and your little girls. My thoughts and prayers go out to you all during this time and I am so sorry for your loss 🙁

  • Jody Gates

    I don’t know you but found you through Tasty Kitchen. A sob is at my throat because of your loss and the fact I have taken my own husband for granted. Praying for you.

  • Misty

    I have never visited your site before, but read it after The Brown Eyed Baker made her peanut butter pie for Mikey. I came to your site to learn more and watched this precious video of him dancing with your daughter. I cried watching the video and for your loss. I do not know you, but my prayers will be with you!

  • Farmgirl Susan

    Jennie, I’m so very sorry. I can only imagine how many times you’ve already watched this one last dance. What a beautiful, heartbreakingly wonderful, oh so precious memory.

  • Nancy

    Such true love lasts forever…even when we miss that person so much we think we can’t breathe again. And you will feel joy again when the pain subsides. Please know that you are not alone, much as it must feel at times. So terribly sorry for your enormous loss – please know you are loved.

  • lpadron

    One can’t but help wonder how much better this world would be if more fathers took the time to dance with their daughters as lovingly as your husband did with his.
    He is a man to emulate.

  • Brian

    This is so heartbreaking and I’m so sorry for your loss. I have a 2 year old daughter and I’m going to dance with her tonight.

  • Sheri Kasper

    I don’t know you Jennifer …. I live in a little town called Three rivers, Texas. I have been rushing around busy at work this morning and sat to eat my lunch and saw the article about making a Peanut Butter Pie today. I am so sorry for your loss and your grief. Life is sometimes so hard. I just wanted you to know…I don’t have a husband – but I have a wonderful 16 year old son – who is the love of my life. I am going to slow down at 4:00 today when I get off work and go home and make him your husband’s pie…..Thanks for sharing the receipe – I will share the pie – with someone I love. I will say a prayer for you that God will help you and your family make it through the coming days and months one day at a time.

  • L

    That breaks my heart. I’m going to make every effort value my time with my wife and kids more than I have been. I’m sorry for your loss.
    L

  • Louise Cook

    The video broke my heart. While I’ll never meet you except over the web please know my arms are around you. Your girls have such lovely memories of their dad, what a sweet memory that video will be to them.

  • momgateway

    I am so very sorry for your loss Jennie…I don’t know what to say to comfort you except that God knows what you are going through and he will see you through. Let me just quote this ” Go out into the darkness and put your hand in the hand of God, it shall be better for you than a light and safer than a known way.” So heart be still, God knows, his will is best, the stretch of years that lie ahead so dim to our imperfect vision is clear to God, in him all time has full provision.
    Take care,
    P.S. I learned of your loss from Diana’s blog post. I was recently diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer.

  • @CharChronicles

    I am sad that I only learned of you today. I just watched this video and it breaks my heart as I can only imagine what it means for you and your girls. I can only hope that it will bring joy in the years to come – for all of you. I wish I could change time, but I hope that I can at least be there as online support in the time ahead. Many blessings and hugs.

  • Ibett

    Jen, I’m speechless. I’ll have you know (I’m sure you’re aware) that your peanut butter recipe (and story) has spread on the net ♥ Thank you for sharing this on your site. The video is beautiful. And nothing compared to the memories you carry in your heart I’m sure. May God bless you and your family, and comfort you always. I will have you and yours in my prayers.

  • Claudia

    This is my first time seeing your blog and it just broke my heart to read and see your video. I cannot imagine. My heart goes out to you and your family, I hope that time will help you all heal. May you and your loved ones surround yourselves with each other’s love and support at this time. God bless.
    Claudia

  • Leslie

    This is my first visit to your blog. I am so, so sorry for what has happened to your husband. My prayers are with you and your family as you learn to live this new normal (as you mentioned in your latest post). It takes alot of courage to continue after such a tremendous loss but I’m praying that you will keep on keeping on. And know you are receiving lots of love from all around the world right here on your little food blog. {{hugs}}

  • Jennifer

    Watching that video and reading your twitter posts, I can’t even begin to put into words how sorry I am for you and your girls. Hope you’re all doing okay.

  • Beth

    That was so precious. I am so sorry for your loss. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

  • Jessica

    Life brings tears, smiles and memories. The tears dry, the smile fades, but the memories live on forever.
    My thoughts and prayers are with you.

  • Robert A Flutie

    What a bittersweet experience it was to watch this clip. The feeling and sense of loss slightly outweighs the comforting feeling that I have of knowing that he was able to share and provide his love to you and your daughters. I pray that over time the love you share strengthens you and blunts the feeling of loss. My deepest condolences to you and your family. FLUTIE

  • Jennifer

    I heard about your heartbreaking loss through the blog world. I am so sorry. My husband and I are about to celebrate 9 years of marriage and we have two girls — 7 & 4. I can’t imagine what you are going through.
    Please accept this virtual {hug} from a stranger.

  • Bea de quidt

    Jenny
    I have never read your blog.But today I got my bakerella update,she made some peanut butter cake for mickey.And my heart wrenched.My Husband died year week of a heart attack he was 43. The last thing he said to me was live your live and thats what I’ve done.And of course everyday i sit for about 5 mins and thinks of him me and my 2 girls(3 and 5) have lived each day for a year,I have started a company, done charity advents and I’ve enjoyed my life. Thats my one piece of advice is live your life.
    Please give your girls a hug from me and tell them never settle for second best as last what he told Katie my 7 year old
    Bea
    xxx

  • Deebi27

    I don’t know you Jenny (even through this blog) , but the great loss of sooo well loved sweatheart is enormus. May Godd bless you and keep you safe and the memories that you have shared with Mikey last for a lifetime for everyone!

  • Ally's Oma

    Jennie, Your loss has touched the hears of so many, which, like me, I’m sure will be doing something extra special for loved ones today. Thank YOU for that. Deut 33:27 says that, “The eternal God is thy refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms…I’m praying Jesus wraps His everlasting arms around you all, and He will be a refuge for you always. Ally’s Oma

  • Loni Reynolds

    oh jennie. oh jennie. so sorry, love. i lost my son 15 months ago. day after tomorrow is his birthday. cry yourself inside out and then cry some more. there is no better reason. from my heart to yours.

  • Erica S.

    In just reading these few posts, I sit here in tears. Not only for you but your family and all of those who never got to tell the ones closest to them how they truly felt. It just reminds us that life is too precious. You are true in saying that “today is the only guarantee” I think that is what made me just break into tears. Know you never know what tomorrow may bring or even take away. I am truly SO SORRY for your loss and please let us, your cooking family know if there is anything (besides peanut butter pie, I know I have made quite a few) that we can do for you and your family…

  • Brigitte

    My heart aches for you. I hope you will take comfort in knowing that you will one day meet again (I too believe that). I will hold you and your children in my prayers.

  • SomethingSweet

    Jennifer,
    This video made me cry. It made me remember losing my mother 5 years ago, how unfair it is.
    I’ve never met you but know that you and your family are in my heart, in my prayers and thoughts.

  • Honey

    I am so sorry for your loss.. this is so painful. It makes me wanna be a better wife and not take a single moment for granted. I’m so sorry!!!

  • Kathy

    I’m sorry. I’m just so sorry for your loss. This literally weighs down my heart. I mean what I say from the bottom of my heart

  • Marc

    Dear Jennifer, I found out about you from another food blogger I read, Shiksa in the Kitchen, she posted your peanut butter pie recipe with the heading “ For Mikey” on it.
    I read your story and although there is nothing anyone can do to change the untimely passing of your dear husband, I just wanted to say that I read about you and your family and my heart broke.
    From a complete stranger, I am sending you and your girls my thoughts, and condolences during the next while as you negotiate such a difficult time in your lives.
    There really are no words are there, you and your family are in my thoughts and in my heart!
    Sincerely,
    Marc

  • Anastasia

    I am so sorry for you and your family. I hope you know that there are so many people praying, meditating, whatever to send some love to you and yours.

  • Christine

    I’m so sorry 🙁 I found your page because I saw all of these delicious peanut butter pies on tastespotting. Even though I found out a little late, I will make my husband some of your peanut butter pie and give him and our baby boy an extra hug.

  • karen tsang

    Wishing you and your children the time and support that you will need to find your new normal. What a beautiful spirit your husband shows in that video. I’m sorry for your loss.

  • anna

    My heart is breaking for you. So so sorry for your loss…I will pray for you and your little girls.

  • Ellen

    This is my first time on your blog–I’m glad I found it. I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. This video is precious—so many children could only dream for a father like this.

  • Marcia

    This video is heart-wrenching but so heart-warming at the same time. What a lovely tribute to your husband and to him as a dad. My heart goes out to you and your family.

  • Sharon Lee

    It is impossible to understand why these things happen. Our faith must see us through. I too believe that you will be together again someday in paradise. Hold tight to your memories and lean on friends and family for support. These times seem unbearable but you must go on for your beautiful children. Love and prayers go with you. This video shows what a beautiful man and wonderful dad he was.

  • Christy

    Jennifer, I just found your blog and even though I don’t know you my heart is broken over this devastating news. I am so very sorry for your loss.

  • Penny

    Such a special moment between a father & his little princess !! Such a precious memory to always have in your hearts. God bless you & your family.

  • megan

    I found you via food in jars. So early in this, you may not need online accompaniment from strangers, but the young widow community is quite large and loving. A good place to start is Widow’s Voice. Just google that – it links to a lot of resources, especially for parents of young children. You don’t need to post this in your comments – I just wanted to give you a small light if you needed one.

  • Rose Todd

    Such a moving memory of your husband. I don’t know you but I send you love and prayers. The grace with which you’ve handled this tragedy is extraordinary.

  • Taryn Langer

    I don’t know you and I’ve just found out about your loss through other blogs I was reading. This video is so incredibly touching, and my heart aches for you. You and your family are in my prayers.

  • Kelly M. Rivard

    Hi Jennie,
    I have never commented here before, but your loss strikes me enough to leave my thoughts. I, too, have lost loved ones to sudden heart attack. When I was 12, my father (age 46) suffered a completely unexpected heart attack while working on our family’s farm. My life was changed forever. I am not writing to make you even more sad, but to let you know that are you not alone. That was 9 years ago, and while it still aches to miss my father, life has continued to take me wonderful places.
    I want you to know that life is still wonderful and real and there are still opportunities. While your heart is broken and you feel like maybe there is no hope, hang on. It will never be completely okay to have lost them, but you learn to consider their role in your life a blessing, rather than focus on their loss as a curse.
    I know it seems hollow coming from a stranger, but you are cared for and there are plenty out there who understand the pain, and hurt for you and your family. I know that you have access to my email address through this comment, so if you ever feel the need to talk about the hard stuff (holidays, belongings, the stuff you forget about until it causes you pain) feel free to contact me.
    I like to think I’m proof of the fact that life can still be amazing after loss…but I’m also realistic to the fact that you may not want life to be so amazing right now. I’ll just leave you with three words that have gotten me through the hardest moments of my life: It gets better.

  • Lynn

    I am so sorry for your loss. This is a truly beautiful moment captured and I wish you and your family the comfort in remember other beautiful moments that you had together.

  • Nicholle Montalvo

    Sending so much love your way… I cannot even begin to imagine the pain you are experiencing. May God bring peace to you and your family and hold you in the years to come…

  • Aficionesydesastres.blogspot.com

    Hello,
    First of all, I tell you I feel your loss. I know your story and I was overwhelmed, I can not suppress my tears to see the video and so I decided to write to you.
    I know it’s impossible to put in your place and really know how you feel, I know the words of a stranger like me, are unable to make your feel good, but even drop by drop and comment after comment, I would like your pain disappear for a moment and your smile again.
    I wish you all the best in life, a warm hug and big kiss from Spain
    I wish to join forces and dancing a lot with our two little daughters
    PD: I will make the cake in your honor.
    Sorry my English! since I am Spanish and I do not speak your language very well.

  • Jennifer B.

    We’ve never met, we don’t know each other, but being a mom to two little girls, I feel for you. This video is so precious and I hope that in time you come to watch and enjoy it. I don’t know how you are holding up, but you are in my prayers. God be with you and your family.

  • Sarah

    Hi Jennie,
    Words don’t really fit. None of them seem like the right kinds of comfort to offer, especially from a complete stranger like me. But I do admire your strength in this very trying time. Nothing compares. I was nine years old when my dad died over 15 years ago. I ache for both you and your children, but I also hope to offer some sort of comfort to tell you that I think of my dad every day of my life like your daughter in this video will. Thank you for sharing that video…it reminded me of the days I would dance with my dad as a little girl. Time is the only thing I found that could separate me from grief. Small steps as you said in your other posts.

  • nina

    this video made me cry. what a lovely father and husband he must have been. i don’t know you personally, but i’m sending you prayers and good wishes.
    and i will make chocolate peanut butter pie, in memory of your wonderful husband.
    love from sunny manila

  • Ankita

    I never knew you or him before I read about the news on Callye’s blog sweetsugarbelle.com . But I felt it deeply when I read it and watched the video. I feel terrible for your loss. My love and good wishes are with you and your family, and may Mikey rest in peace. May you recover from your pain, and cherish his memory fondly.

  • malka

    Siempre que pierdes a un ser querido, no encuentras palabras que puedan suavisar ese dolor, y creo que no existen esas palabras, solo existe las del corazón en donde sin decir nada, alguien te abraza y comparte algo de tu pérdida, ese abrazo hoy te lo doy a ti querida Jennie, no me conoces porque hoy me suscribi a tu página, pero el solo hecho de saber que haz perdido parte de ti, me duele y mucho, porque se lo que es perder a un amor, lo siento mucho, Malka