for mikey

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This is where his wedding ring used to rest.

Nestled on the fourth finger of his left hand is where it belongs. It was supposed to be there for decades to come, but tonight it hangs from my neck.

I took this picture on our last date. He had just come off an insanely busy project at work. We had to cancel a family getaway because work got too busy. When the project delivered, Mikey finally took a much needed day off, having worked nine in a row.

The moment I heard he was taking off, I cleared my work schedule. Deadlines were the least of my priorities. We finally had the chance to walk, hand-in-hand, during daylight hours—the fact that it reached 102ºF didn’t matter to me.

I had no idea that three weeks exactly from that last date I’d be gathering with my closest friends and family to say goodbye to him. I’m trying not to think of it as such, and believe in my heart that we will meet again…some day.

As I spend Friday reflecting on the love and life that was gone in an instant, I’d like to invite all of you to celebrate his life too. Mikey loved peanut butter cream pie. I haven’t made it in a while, and I’ve had it on my to-do list for a while now.

I kept telling myself I would make it for him tomorrow. Time has suddenly stood still, though, and I’m waiting to wake up and learn to live a new kind of normal. For those asking what they can do to help my healing process, make a peanut butter pie this Friday and share it with someone you love. Then hug them like there’s no tomorrow because today is the only guarantee we can count on.

Creamy Peanut Butter Pie

Serves 10 to 12

8 ounces chocolate cookies

4 tablespoons butter, melted

4 ounces finely chopped chocolate or semi-sweet chocolate chips

1/4 cup chopped peanuts

1 cup heavy cream

8 ounces cream cheese

1 cup creamy-style peanut butter

1 cup confectioner’s sugar

1 – 14 ounce can sweetened condensed milk

1 teaspoon vanilla extract

1 teaspoon freshly squeezed lemon juice

Add the cookies to the bowl of a food processor and pulse into fine crumbs.  Combine melted butter and cookie crumbs in a small bowl, and stir with a fork to mix well.  Press mixture into the bottom and 1-inch up the sides of a 9-inch springform pan.

Melt the chocolate in a double boiler or in the microwave.  Pour over bottom of cookie crust and spread to the edges using an off-set spatula.  Sprinkle chopped peanuts over the melted chocolate. Place pan in the refrigerator while you prepare the filling.

Pour the heavy cream into a bowl and beat using a stand mixer or hand mixer until stiff peaks form.  Transfer to a small bowl and store in refrigerator until ready to use.  Place the cream cheese and peanut butter in a deep bowl.  Beat on medium speed until light and fluffy.  Reduce speed to low and gradually beat in the confectioner’s sugar.  Add the sweetened condensed milk, vanilla extract and lemon juice. Increase speed to medium and beat until all the ingredients are combined and filling is smooth.

Stir in 1/3 of the whipped cream into the filling mixture (helps lighten the batter, making it easier to fold in the remaining whipped cream).  Fold in the remaining whipped cream.  Pour the filling into the prepared springform pan.  Drizzle the melted chocolate on top, if using, and refrigerate for three hours or overnight before serving.


906 Comments

  • Mardi@eatlivetravelwrite

    Jennie, you know my heart is breaking for you and the girls but I am taking comfort in your strength right now. What a beautiful tribute. I will be keeping you all in my thoughts this Friday and beyond. XOX

  • Andrea

    Consider it done…. a peanut butter pie this Friday it is.
    Wish I was making it because of a different prompt than this one tho. 🙁
    Praying for you & your children, dear heart.
    xoxoxoxoxo

  • Tara

    I have only spent 7 short years with my other half and yet I cannot imagine a life without her ever again. It is hard to fathom your pain now- the loss that you are reeling from, the hurt, even anger. I cannot fathom how you get up and trudge those heavy steps forward (although I can imagine that your beautiful girls aid in giving you strength.) I haven’t the right words to offer you comfort because I am sure that even trying to imagine how your heart and mind tear at each other now is laughable unless someone has experienced the same loss. I will say to you, though, that I offer you and your family up in my prayers… That you may find solace in this madness, comfort through the pain, wisdom to find ways to keep going, and the ability to keep Mikey’s love in the forefront of your heart and mind; always.

  • Nicole

    I am so so sorry for your loss. Every recipe, every post has been an inspiration and I’ve loved every recipe I’ve tried. This sounds delicious and I’ll make it for my family.

  • Sharon Miro

    Oh. My.
    My late husband loved cream pies. His favorite was chocolate banana cream. But he would have loved this pie too. This week I will make it for him, and for Mikey.

  • Concretemoomin.wordpress.com

    I just wanted to say that I only heard of you when this sad news was tweeted the other day. Since then you have been in my thoughts and I can’t begin to imagine how you are coping. I am getting married in 10 days so i think the emotions tied up with that mean that your news really hit me and made me realise how lucky I am. You will be in my thoughts today, Friday and no doubt into the future. I wish you lots of love and strength.xx

  • Sarah

    You’re one special lady Jennifer and I’m so happy our children helped our paths cross. Stay brave and strong gorgeous lady. XX

  • Jordana

    All of my love and prayers go to you and your girls. Your words are beautiful. I’m truly moved. Stay strong, the world is thinking of you.

  • Sugar Daze/Cat

    Jennifer, I cannot fathom the tragedy that has befallen you and your family. I am a mom of 2 too and I have been thinking about you non-stop since I heard your sad news. I am so sorry for you and your girls; I will never understand when someone in the prime of their life is suddenly gone. It’s true that we so often forget to stop and smell the flowers in this crazy thing called life. I am taking your words to heart and am sending you lots of love and support from Paris.

  • Jessica

    Jennifer, my heart, thoughts, prayers and love all go out to you. Though we were just starting to chat (thanks to YummyMummy’s Rabbit Cake) I enjoyed our tweets and banter.
    Thank you for sharing this recipe. We have a family dinner every friday night, I will definitely be making this, and sharing it with my family that I love so very much.

  • Maria

    Jennie, this is a beautiful tribute to your husband. We all show our love, and heal, in different ways; one of your ways is cooking, and it seems fitting. This is a pie made with love for the person that handed you that Newsweek paper clip all those years ago about becoming a personal chef. He knew you loved doing this. I keep thinking of a post you wrote a few weeks back titled Why I Cook, and it was obvious that it is because you love and have a big heart. I am sure Mikey is smiling from heaven because you are making this for him.

  • Nancy @SensitivePantry

    Jennie – The love you and Mikey (and your girls) share has traveled the world these past few days. While you undoubtedly see the outpouring of love and grief on your behalf I’d like you to know the intensity of the emotions you and your family are feeling have reached us–they’re palpable. We physically feel your love and pain. And, the love you are sending–that’s something that will last you and Mikey an eternity. Though we barely know each other please do not hesitate to reach out if you need anything. My heart is with you.

  • Colleen

    Dearest Jennifer,I just happened to come upon your blog today and I have no words – only tears to offer. I am so very very sorry for your and your girls great loss! How devastating a sudden death is. I am just so pleased for you that you had that last date. I will be making one with my hubby too. It is SO important because life has no guarantees and it is a part of life to take our loved ones for granted. I will be making this stunning pie tomorrow and will share it with mine on Friday. Sending you a warm comforting hug from Cape Town, South Africa xx

  • Sharon

    This is a beautifully written post. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope your children and you find strength in each other. While we have never met, I am terribly sorry for your loss, and I will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers.

  • Janis

    Dear Jennifer,
    You don’t know me but my heart is breaking for you. I have no words because I do know what you are going through. Just know that there is a million hugs in my heart for you.
    With love,
    Janis

  • Sami

    I´m so sorry for your loss,how devastating when you have had your father die young and now your husband too. I just found your blog through Shauna´s Gluten free girl blog. I´m sure you will have plenty of support and friends you can count on.

  • wendy b

    my heart is breaking for your loss, and my head is spinning imagining what that loss must feel like. I will try your recipes and think of your lovely words. I wish you much comfort from friends, family and faith.

  • JulieD

    You are so inspiring, stealing from Winnie’s words. I will make Mikey’s favorite pie on Friday and share it with the man I love. Again, I’m so sorry for your loss. Huge virtual hugs being sent your way.

  • Elissa

    It’s so touching you’re expressing your grief through your heart and your hands – and of course through the food you so lovingly cook and share with us.
    Of course I’ll make this pie, and dedicate a slice to Mikey.
    Love you!

  • IlinaP

    What is not to love about peanut butter pie? And what is there not to love about you? I shall arrive on your doorstep tomorrow. My flight arrives at LGA at 8:00 AM.

  • Taylor

    I am so very sorry for your loss. Your words are gut wrenching and I just want to reach through the virtual world and give you a big hug. I will be making your peanut butter pie on Friday night to share with my friends at a BBQ on Saturday night.

  • Erin

    I will most definitely be gathering the ingredients for this peanut butter pie to make this Friday in honor of your husband. And in honor of you who so many of us are holding in our hearts in hopes you can feel that when time stands still.

  • Susan

    Such a sad story to remind us all that life is a precious gift. Counted short to compare to only the love we share.

  • Alicia Sokol - Weekly Greens

    You got it. I will take a photo of the pie and Instagram it for you. Maybe people would be willing to Tweet photos of their creations this Friday – a tribute to Mikey in the Twittersphere, so to speak.
    I’m also making your ricotta today. You are heavily on my mind. Though we’ve only met once (at EWR11 in DC), I just can’t stop thinking of you and those precious girls. Wishing you strength and hope, Jennifer.

  • Kelly

    I am so deeply sorry for your loss. I found your site and story through Twitter. My prayers to you and your family.

  • Courtney

    Losing someone is never easy, especially someone you love – we can all see the love you have for Mikey. I’m so truly sorry for you loss.. I know there are no words to say or anything to do to take away the pain.. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. God Bless.. and until you meet again. Hugs!

  • Jamie Caputo

    Peanut butter pie will be made and shared with my loved ones this Friday. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this time of loss. May God comfort you and give you peace.

  • Sonya Epperson Brinton

    I went through the same at the age of 30…now at 45, I am now in year two of my next marriage. Love him more than life itself, and I can’t imagine going through this again. Much love my friend.

  • Jenni

    I don’t know you. I didn’t know Mikey. Yet I know your pain. I am so very deeply sorry for your loss. I just watched your husband dance with your daughter, and I am smiling and crying at the same time.
    So I will make a peanut butter pie on Friday. And I pour into it all the love and joy that I can. And it will be the best. And we will think of you.

  • Lynn T

    I am so sorry for your loss. I have tears for you and your family, and it makes me think about how hard my husband works, and how we need to enjoy every minute together. Thank you for the posts you’ve put up on your husband and sharing with us. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

  • Aviva Goldfarb

    My heart breaks for you and your family, Jennifer. Thank you for the reminder not to put off doing things for the people we love, and to cherish each day we have with them.

  • Micaela Torregrosa-Mahoney

    oh Jennie, I’ve been taking a break from SM and just now found out, I’m so sorry for your loss. I know that you and the girls are surrounded by a supportive family & community of friends, and that will help. I will make this pie for my PB-loving guys this Friday, and we will send love, light, and prayers your way.

  • Sara

    I just recently came across your blog, by the mention of others that I follow and I’m so sorry for your loss. I keep getting teary eyed when reading your posts and my heart hurts for you. You and your family will be in my thoughts.

  • Sue Ann

    My thoughts and prayers are with you as you move into this new phase in your life. Thank you for the reminder that “tomorrows” can easily become today and to cherish every moment we have with our loved ones.

  • Sara @ PeriwinklePapi

    I’m so sorry for your loss Jennie. Marinka shared how you had been there for her awhile back. I hope the online community can support you now. So incredibly sorry. Sending prayers and strength to your family.

  • Marta

    I am so very sorry for you and your family. I can’t imagine the heartbreak and loss. I wish you and your family all of the best.

  • The Cilantropist

    Reading your heartfelt words brought tears to my eyes. I know everyone here in the blogging community will be here to support you, and it sounds like you already have an incredible amount of strength and love. Will keep you and your family in my thoughts.

  • AnalystQueen

    Jennifer, I met you briefly at Eat Write Retreat in DC, yet I was touched by your kindness & inspiring words to me during the Panel Q & A. I’ve followed your tweets & posts, and feel like I know you like an old friend. Sending you my thoughts, prayers, hugs virtually and will bake this pie in your honor, for Mikey, your girls, your family. And because I know and believe that “Food brings the world together.”

  • Robynne

    One Peanut Butter Pie coming up… keep that ring close to your heart until you meet again…

  • Grace

    Actually, Jennie, after rereading your words, in addition to the Peanut Butter Pie, I will also make my wife’s favorite pie, which I find disgusting. (Premade graham cracker crust, commercially canned cherry pie filling, and commercially canned whipped cream.)I will make it because she loves it and because I love her and I will make it just in case I ever find myself never to have a another chance to make her horrible (shudder) pie.

  • Amanda

    Been thinking of you and yours non-stop… making changes and saying words that I hadnt said in too long. I am so devastated for you… and feel so blessed that your message is one of hope and love.

  • Marianne

    I came over from Shauna’s blog and I just want to send you my condolences to you and your family. I’m so very sorry for your loss.

  • saraKate

    My heart is breaking for you and your family. I can’t imagine your pain, and can only offer prayers to comfort you. That, and making a peanut butter pie this Friday. I’ll do it for you, and share it with my loved ones, for Mikey.

  • Sue Zumout

    Every day I wake you’re on my mind and in my heart. I will honor your husband’s memory this Friday with peanut butter pie and hugs all around.
    Again, my deepest sympathy.

  • Deeba Rajpal (@vindee)

    You are brave & you are strong Jennifer. Really sorry about your loss… I can’t find the words to express what I feel for you! This is a beautiful post for Mikey. HUGS to you & your girls!

  • Sara

    The blogging community is grieving for you and your family and sending support through the web. I’m making that pie…you bet.

  • Bobbi

    I came over from a link shared by Adryon’s Kitchen on Facebook and your story has touched my heart in a way I will never forget. The sadness I feel for you and your girls is so strong but my admiration of your strength in the face of your loss is 100 times more! Please know that I will be making Mikey’s pie this friday!

  • Cat

    I am so sorry for your loss! My kids and I are making a cream pie for Mikey. We are praying for you and your girls.

  • Hannah

    Jennie, I have enjoyed your blog for quite a while. This is a beautiful tribute to your husband. My heart goes out to you and your daughters. Thank you for sharing this pie recipe and I will be baking it Friday for my husband and sons. Thinking of you and wishing you love and strength.

  • robynski

    Your love for Mikey will be in our hearts and minds as we share his favorite pie this weekend. Thank you for sharing just a bit more of him with us and allowing us to love you for it. Love is really all we need. Lots and lots of love. Hugs!

  • DessertForTwo

    Oh, Jennie. We are all here for you.
    Peanut butter pie and lots of hugs & kisses will be shared.
    You’re in my thoughts & prayers.
    Much love,
    Christina

  • Grace @eatdinner

    Jennifer, My heart is breaking for you. Tears started flowing the minute I heard and are still. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your girls.
    Your love for Mikey is so apparent in your work–a bright, shining love that you clearly shared with him, and through your writing, kindly, shared with your readers. Thank you for your openness and truth, your willingness to announce and embrace the great love of your life. Sharing that love even today in the face of such a terrible tragedy.
    May your family, friends and this impossibly wide network of extended friends reflect a small silver of that love to embrace you and your girls.

  • Isabelle @ Crumb

    Jennie, I can’t even begin to fathom the kind of grief you’re living through, but my heart aches for you and your girls. I’m so very sorry.
    I can’t think of a better tribute for a loved one than to make their favourite dish. I’ll be making peanut butter pie this Friday, I will hug my BF very tight, and all the while I will be thinking of you and Mikey. Be well.

  • Rachel

    Jennie, I am so sorry for your loss. Your strength and love are so inspiring to me. I will, with great care and passion, make peanut butter pie for my husband and son Friday. My thoughts and prayers are with you…

  • Kasey

    The way you so openly shared your pain and grief with us, but more than anything, the love for your husband, made me hug mine a little tighter every night since Monday. Much love and hugs to you!

  • Beth R.

    We have nut allergies at my house, so I can’t make a pie for Mikey.. but I will be thinking of you all Friday and keeping you in my prayers.

  • pam

    jenni, i read of mikey’s passing on shauna’s blog. my heart goes out to you and your family. you are in my prayers. pam

  • Foodwishes

    Okay, so now I feel bad I don’t like peanut butter cream pies! Although, something tells me that you could care less which pie we make, as long as we do the “…share it with someone you love.” part. 🙂
    You are truly an extraordinary woman. There are people you meet and forget, there are people you meet and remember, and then there are people you meet and wish you knew your entire life. You’re that last one.

  • dymnyno

    Dear Jennifer, I have always enjoyed the open window to your life with your wonderful husband and children through your blog and twitter. Please know that I feel sad for your loss . You will be together one day.

  • Pattie

    My heart breaks for you and I am so sorry for your loss. This is a beautiful post, and the suggestion to make Mikey’s favorite pie this Friday is a lovely way to honor his memory. You are in my thoughts. Sending much love and healing your way.

  • TowardsJoy

    I am so sorry for your loss, Jenny. There are no words to comfort you. But know that a stranger for San Francisco is thinking of you and your daughters right now.

  • mis-cakes

    I will make this pie friday to celebrate Mike. I will make it a date night and spend it with my fiancé. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I am sending love and positive energy your way.

  • kickpleat

    I’m so sorry for your loss and I hope that you can find what you need to come out from this fog. Your memories and the strong bond of love that you have will be with you always. My mom died last year and I wrote about it on my blog. The outpouring of support and caring that resulted was extremely comforting. Who knew that strangers words could mean so much. My thoughts and heart go out to you.

  • Staci

    I wish I had the ability to make this on Friday. Truly, I do. Perhaps I can figure out a more simple way of doing it, since I don’t have a food processor or any business being in the kitchen.
    I will be thinking of you and your family forever….not just on Friday.
    And you will meet again, for sure. Look for those little signs that tell you he’s still with you and your girls every day. He’ll find a way to show you he’s there.
    warmest, Staci

  • Lisa Bernstein

    Our whole family will make pie this week and we will send your family our love. I am so sorry to only meet you now, through this tragedy, but sharing it has meant so much to so many.

  • @awinegoddess

    Dear Jennie, I know we never met. But I love to read your tweets and blog posts since two years. I am so sorry for your loss. My deepest sympathy goes to you and your family. Stay strong! I wanted to share this beautiful poem with you:
    Death is nothing at all.
    I have only slipped away to the next room.
    I am I and you are you.
    Whatever we were to each other,
    That, we still are.
    Call me by my old familiar name.
    Speak to me in the easy way
    which you always used.
    Put no difference into your tone.
    Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
    Laugh as we always laughed
    at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
    Play, smile, think of me. Pray for me.
    Let my name be ever the household word
    that it always was.
    Let it be spoken without effect.
    Without the trace of a shadow on it.
    Life means all that it ever meant.
    It is the same that it ever was.
    There is absolute unbroken continuity.
    Why should I be out of mind
    because I am out of sight?
    I am but waiting for you.
    For an interval.
    Somewhere. Very near.
    Just around the corner.
    All is well.

  • Buccinator

    My parents live four hours away and have busy schedules. I make little meals and snacks for them that I/they freeze and then can use whenever they need them. One of those things was a peanut butter pie. I’m asking that they go ahead and dig in Friday, and I’m sending out a letter to them today, telling them how much they mean to me.
    I’ll also be making a pie for my fiance and I. And I’ve already written his letter too.
    I’m so sorry for your loss. I will be thinking of you, praying for you and your family, and asking those around me to hug their loved ones tighter.

  • kellypea

    I’ve shared your incredible loss with my own husband who also works at a mind-boggling pace. I am so sorry for you, your children…goodness. I can’t begin to imagine. I will be making peanutbutter pie.

  • shelly (cookies and cups)

    Thank you so much for writing that Jennie..I can only imagine how hard it was.
    Please know that you are in so many of our thoughts and prayers and are a true inspiration of grace and love.
    Hugs from a far off friend. xoxo

  • Samira

    Dear Jennifer,
    I came across your blog via a facebook posting. I was moved to tears when I read your entry. I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

  • Rhonda Sparks

    Hi Jennie.
    I just read about your loss from Marinka’s blog post. You don’t know me but your story spoke deeply to me as I too lost my husband when I was 30 years old. He was 32. It was after a 5-year battle with skin cancer. We too had little ones, our boys were ages 1, 3, and 6 at his passing. This September 14th marks the 10-year anniversay of his death. A lot has happened in those ten years and why I share that is to let you know that after all the dark days pass, there is peace again. Your pain will feel as though there is no way you can go on… There will be days that the emotions and deep sorrow stop you dead in your tracks. But I am living proof to share with you that there is/will be joy again!!! I had some great books that helped me though the grief and through my kids grieving process (the best thing I can tell you about your kids grief and pain is that they will process this experience totally different than you … Their little brains will take the pain in at sporadic times, throughtout several years where adults will feel the intense pain deeply in the first year.). The best book I read for myself was titled “I’m Grieving As Fast As I Can” by Feinberg. It speaks directly to younger widows with small children.
    If there is ever a time you want to talk to someone or email someone who has ‘been there’, please feel free to call on me. My email is Rhonda@uvskinz.com. I can also share other Children’s books that helped me if you are interested.
    I am traveling this week, but I am going to try and find time to make your peanut butter cream pie in honor of Mikey.
    May fond memories of your husband help you through these difficult days.
    Bless you,
    Rhonda

  • MSRheinlander

    I can barely type… as I wipe away the tears!! I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that you will find peace in the wonderful memories that you have made and carry on with some happiness in your heart!

  • Sabrina Modelle

    Though we only know one another through tweets and blogs and facebook, you’ve been on my mind all week since I heard the new. I am sending loving kindness your way each day. May small joys and much love come to you and your girls during this difficult time.
    Sabrina

  • Dana B.

    Every time I read about your loss I cry. Sad for you and your kids and sad that you’re living one of my worst fears. Obviously the love you have is very beautiful. I hope those memories help you through this. I’ll be making the pie on Friday. (I bet the grocery stores notice a spike in peanut butter sales 🙂 Wishing you friends, family, and lots of love and laughter.

  • Stella

    I caught a link to this on Facebook. So very sorry for your loss. I will definitely make a peanut butter pie this Friday, and I will post about it on my food blog in tribute. Bless.

  • Peggy

    Dear Jennie,
    I just found out about the loss of your dear husband as I’ve not been on-line this week in our haste to be prepared for school next week! I just wanted to you to know that you and the girls are in our prayers! I so wish that there was something I could to do to help you or ease your pain but know that there are many who are thinking of you and lifting you up in this time of need.

  • Tara

    I only just began following you on Twitter last week, and have thought of you throughout each day since Sunday….and in every gesture I make toward my husband to make sure he knows how much I cherish him.
    I am so sorry for you and your girls…
    If you don’t mind, I’m going to make chocolate oatmeal no-bake cookies for my husband Friday in honor of the love shared between you and Mikey – it’s the treat my own husband loves that I always mean to make “tomorrow,” and yet never find the time to.
    Many prayers and thoughts for you and your girls…
    Tara

  • danielle

    Dear Jennifer,
    I wish I could express my deepest sorry for your loss. Thinking of you and your girls and hoping only that you feel all the love and support around you in this impossible time.

  • Amy

    I’m so sorry. My fiance passed away in January—also unexpectedly. It’s a horrible thing to go through, and I’m so sorry you have to experience this.

  • Lindsey (aka modchik)

    Oh my gosh that photo is a treasure, it gave me goosebumps to read that you recently took that. I’m heartbroken to think that you lost him so soon, that you have children and family that are hurting too. I don’t even care that peanut butter is not a staple favorite of mine there is no question in my mind I’m making it Friday in honor of Mikey. Prayers for you and my heartfelt sympathy for your kids and your family.

  • Heather

    I am so so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine. I don’t know you and yet feel immense sorrow for you and your girls. I have been with my partner since I was 16 years old (I am nearly 32) so that is half of my life. I can’t imagine life without him. My heart grieves for you. I hope you find peace and comfort in your friends and family. xx

  • Jillian_R

    Jenni,
    Words ca not convey the sorrow I feel for you, and your girls. This is never easy and I wish I could make it all better for you. I am so happy that you were able to have that last date together and I know you will chereish it forever.
    My deepest sympahtise to you and yours.

  • Stefanie F.

    Jennie, you may not know me but I knew your husband, Mike. I was honored and privileged to work with him at Lifetime Television and for many years we played on the company softball team together. I will always remember him as kind, gentle, funny and a fierce competitor on the field. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family as we have all lost a bright light.

  • Brooks

    My heartfelt condolences to you and your daughters…may your new normal be living one day at a time surrounded by the family and friends who love you. When a ray of sunlight washes upon your face, know that the warmth it brings is generated from above by the man you love and his creator.

  • Erin

    I don’t know what to say. I got tears in my eyes within the first few words of your post. And I plan to make a peanut butter pie this Friday.

  • Soma

    I have never posted a comment here before, but I cannot stop thinking about you ever since I heard the tragic news. I am a mom of two girls too, and cannot even fathom what you and the family are going through right now. My heart is breaking. So sorry! a reminder that every single moment is precious and one shld live like there is no tomorrow. My prayers and heart felt condolences are with all of you. And Mikey is there with you always. I lost my mom 10 yrs back when she was really young and I am talking to her all day.It hurts but it helps too. Loved ones are never away. xoxoxo

  • Krista

    Jennie…I don’t know you and I’ve never read your blog before today, but I wanted to let you know that your story has touched my heart. I think the Friday peanut butter cream pie baking is a really wonderful start to your healing. Much love to you.

  • Jenn

    I’m so sorry….. I can’t even begin to imagine the pain and loss you feel. ((hugs)) I will make a peanut butter pie on Friday and we’ll celebrate the life of your loved one.
    I’m so sorry…….

  • Kim aka the Onionista

    With tears on my cheeks, I send you hugs, compassion, and most of all my thoughts and prayers for you and your girls. Life is so fragile! Ditto to whoever said, one peanut butter pie coming right up this Friday!

  • Bri

    Making a peanut butter pie is the least I can do. I’m so sorry for your loss. *hugs* to you and your family, you’ll be in my thoughts.

  • Vicki

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your daughters. I don’t even have a food processor but I’m going to make the pie this Friday anyway in honor of your husband.

  • Valerie

    I am so very sorry for your loss. A wonderful tribute. Made me re-evaluate a lot of things in my life. God bless.

  • Eric Messinger

    Peanut Butter on Friday. For sure. Thinking of you and wishing you well.
    Eric Messinger

  • Emily

    Jennie, my heart is broken for you. Even though I really know you only through reading your recipes on food52, I can tell absolutely what a beautiful, strong soul you are and how deeply you love. I will be praying for you and your family. And I will absolutely be baking a pie and sharing it with those I love. We can never say I love you enough.

  • Kate Morgan

    A beautiful tribute. I am thinking of and praying for your family that you may find peace and “a new kind of normal” when you are ready. Friday I will be reunited with family that lives across the country and I will make this for my dad, brother, and nephew, all named Mikey.
    The next day I will be attending the 10 year memorial service for my cousin’s husband, the love of her life who passed away suddenly and far too soon from heart failure, leaving her, her two young children, and all of us. He lives on in all of us as will your Mikey. Love and strength to you, Kate

  • Rachel T.

    Nothing necessarily will ever make it better. But two things that helped me through the pain of losing – this poem (http://homepages.wmich.edu/~cooneys/poems/auden.stop.html) because I felt like it spoke DIRECTLY to how I was feeling – and this book (http://www.amazon.com/Year-Magical-Thinking-Joan-Didion/dp/1400078431/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1313013097&sr=8-1). Both are beautiful. I’ve always found comfort in the written word. Hopefully it might help you too. All the love in the world – Rachel.

  • Kimmy @ Lighter and Local

    Jennie – my heart breaks for you and your girls. A peanut butter pie is a beautiful, simple tribute. I cannot even begin to fathom what you you’re feeling. Much love from my family to yours. You’re in our thoughts.

  • Ilke

    My first time at your site and i am deeply sorry about your loss!
    I will try to make the time to honor your wish but even if i cant,
    You and your family are in my thoughts! Wish you strength to go through these times!

  • Ulla

    I have been thinking of you and your beautiful girls all week with a heavy heart. You are a such an inspiring person and I could tell how supportive your husband was to you and your creative spirit through your tweets. I am so sorry, it is hard to fathom a loss so great.

  • Megan

    You are so right about not knowing when the end will be. I lost my 31 year old brother after a 6 month fight with cancer. It’s made me and my parents see things a lot differently and we are working on a lot of things – one we talked about today was writing letters and descriptions of personal items that we have and why we have them. Anyway, off subject, but I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s always tragic when people pass away at a young age.

  • Claire

    Impossible to know what to say to someone you’ve never met at such a time, but my heart breaks for you, truly. I will be thinking of you on Friday when I make the pie for date night. Stay strong x

  • Jeanne @ CookSister!

    Oh Jennifer I am so sorry for your loss. Any death is hard, but one so unexpected and premature must be particularly painful. May your friends and family give you the space and support to be as weak as you need to, or as strong as you wish. Sending you hugs and positive thoughts from London.

  • Andrea

    I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I am thinking of you and wishing you strength, love and kindness as you travel through these coming days.

  • na

    Hi Jennie,
    I am so very sorry about your loss. I am glad to see you are trying to hold strong…..the kids need you just as you need them right now.

  • Ishay Govender-Ypma (@Foodandthefab)

    Dear Jennie
    I wish you light in this dark time. I have no idea whether it get’s better but somewhere deep inside I believe the answer is yes. I want to make this pie for you and your wonderful husband, and for mine (who loves peanut butter) and for whom I need to find a way to make more time. A big hug, from Cape Town

  • Rita

    Jennifer,
    What a wonderful way to showing a bit of who Mikey was by sharing his favorite pie. I lost my husband in October, he was only 53, we spent 21 years together and have three kids. Even after 10 months,I have no widow wisdom to share with you that doesn’t sound cliche. All my best to you in your upside down journey.

  • jaclyn

    Jennifer, my heart is heavy and hurting for you so, so badly. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your children during this difficult time. I’ll be making a peanut butter pie for my other half for Friday, in tribute to Mikey, you and your family. You’re right when you say that ‘today is the only guarantee we can count on,’ it’s so important to live for today, love in the moment, and appreciate the life and love we have today.

  • Karen

    I’m usually a lurker. But read your posts and love your recipes. I’m not a writer or good with words but along with everyone else I wanted you to know I to have you in my thoughts and I’m going to make the pie for us this Friday. They say time heals all wounds but I have found it to be time just helps you process it better. Just keep breathing in and out and the love of children covers a multitutude of pains.

  • Sam

    Dear Jennie.
    I know I don’t know you and I wish I still didn’t, because that would mean there was no sad story for me to read and that your life was continuing along normally as it had done before. I shake my head, nay my fists, at the unlucky cards the universe deals to the people who are happily minding their own business and making the most of their lives with the people they love. My heart bleeds to hear that you and your daughters now have to conquer loss and grief. I don’t even know if that is possible for you to ever come to terms with all of this, right now it must seem like an impossible mountain to climb. But I wish for you all, nothing more than that one day you will find peace and acceptance and comfort from all the good memories of your family as it once was, whilst building a brave new chapter of what your family will now be.
    Take care,
    Love, Sam

  • Dede

    I don’t know you, but my heart aches for you and your children. May you find comfort and peace in Mikey’s memory. God bless all of you <3 Peanut butter pie was my mother's favorite as well. Maybe Mikey and my mom are enjoying a piece together now at the most heavenly of tables...
    God bless you and yours.

  • Pam

    I found your story via this virtual world we have all come to love. My heart breaks for you and you girls. The life you shared with your husband will most certainly live on through your writing and most importantly through your girls. My thoughts along with so many others are with you and your loved ones. Hoping you feel all the love and support coming your way. XOXO.

  • nipponnin

    Dear Jennie, Denise@creative kitchen commented on my blog (Departure) and told me about your loss of your husband. My heart ache for you and really sorry. This is lovely post. I’m praying for you and your daughters.

  • bellini

    It always amazes me, and yet it doesn’t, how supportive the blogging community is in time of sorrow. There will be many people making peanut butter pie in tribute on Friday. It is a sad loss indeed and my heart goes out to you, your girls and your family.

  • Kathryn

    I am so, so sorry for your loss. I’ll be making that peanut butter pie in hopes that it will be a small, good thing during this terrible time. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

  • Karen

    I’m not generally a commenter, but I wanted you to know that you and your family are in my prayers. And I will be making this pie in your husband’s honor on Friday to share with my family for Grandma’s bday.

  • KK @ Preppy Pink Crocodile

    I am here via Gluten Free Girl and just wanted to let you know that your family is in my heart right now. I am so very sorry for your loss! I think the joyful and sweet pie is the most perfect way to remember such an incredible person.
    KK

  • Lexi

    Will do Jennie. It was beautiful watching your daughter and Mikey dance. Big hugs for you and your girls, and condolences.

  • Laura

    Jennifer, I am so sorry for your loss. Time will heal you, and you will walk stronger than ever. For now, please know that you have another mom and wife sending you a virtual hug. I will keep this recipe and make it one day, thank you!

  • Jayne Georgette

    Hi,
    I am new here; just stumbled upon simple bites where I saw the announcement about this tragic event. I’d like to participate, but wanted to find out if I can create my own peanut butter pie/tart?
    Although I do not know you Jennie and I cannot say I feel your pain, but by participating in the baking I am adding to the sweet memory of your husband; who I am sure will be remembered forever in your and your children’s heart

  • Jamie

    Jennifer, I did not really know you but how I hurt for you and send you a hug. I lost my dear brother 2 years ago and how it still hurts like hell. I cannot even imagine losing my husband, the love of my life. I try and think about it but how do we prepare for something that we don’t even want to think about. Sadly, this is life and it does go on for those of us remaining. Baking his favorite dessert is the first step in keeping him with you. I shed tears and hope that you and your children will find away to both hold on and let go. I know how hard it is. Sending you my thoughts and hugs.

  • Jennifer Michie

    I am an avid reader of your blog and I was so saddened to hear your news. I just wanted you to know that across the pond someone is thinking about you! You and your family will be in our daily prayers!

  • Leigh Powell Hines (@Hinessightblog)

    We’ve never met. We’ve never chatted, but I may have made one of your recipes. Your loss has broken my heart, and I’m so sorry. I will definitely make your pie, and slow down a little, and share it with people I love.
    You have my deepest sympathy.

  • heidi robb

    Jennifer, I have not stopped thinking of you and your girls shocking loss. Since the tragic news became public, each dish to come out of my kitchen does so with the thoughts of the fragility of precious life in mind, and with love.
    Sending healing thoughts of comfort, support and peace,
    Heidi

  • Becca H.

    Oh Jennie… I’m sobbing for you as I type this. You and your beautiful family will be in my prayers for a long time to come.
    Tomorrow, I WILL make a peanut butter pie, and I will never EVER forget to acknowledge the importance of “just for today” <3 God bless you.

  • Carolyn

    I cry for you, I pray for you. I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine what you’re going through. Take the time you need and take care of yourself.

  • Brandi Johnson

    Jennie I am so sorry for your lost and I will also be making a Peanut Butter Pie on friday as well. This post reminds me that we have live our days like its our last. I will pray for you and your family. Have a blessed day

  • Christina

    I’m going to try my best to make this pie! I’m going to be traveling on Friday but we got new neighbors so I will try to make it and pass it to them.
    I’m so sorry for your loss. There’s nothing fair about it and there’s not much I can say. From one Brooklynite to another, if you need anything (even some Ronny Brooks ice cream). You just let me know via twitter (stylish1z) email or phone (973-368-7415). ♥

  • Chef Dennis

    Jennifer
    I am so sorry to hear about your husbands passing, what a terrible loss especially at such a young age. It is the truth that in our hurried fast paced lives we don’t think of how it can all be taken away from us so quickly.
    I’m sure you and your girls will always remember how much he loved you, and I’m sure you were his world.
    Be Strong and keep your family close.
    Dennis

  • Nina

    Dear Jennie,
    I don’t know you and it feels a little odd to be contacting you about something so personal, but I just came to your blog via Shauna’s, and I’m so sorry for your loss.
    Some words on marriage from Kahlil Gibran’s ‘The Prophet’:
    “You were born together, and together you shall be for evermore.
    You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days.
    Aye, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.”
    A blogger who you might draw a little strength from, not now but perhaps in the months to come:
    http://www.susannahconway.com/about-contact/
    Wishing you strength and lots of support.
    Nina. x

  • Laura

    So sorry for your loss. In honor of you and Mikey, I will make a couple of these and drop them off at work tomorrow, along with a copy of your post. Such a wonderful memory in honor of someone!

  • Kate @ Kate from Scratch

    I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s amazing the moments we take for granted at times, despite trying to live each to the fullest potential each and every day. I’m sorry it takes reading something like this to remind me of those little things.
    Thank you for the reminder. Again, my condolences.

  • Noel

    I don’t know you and, like so many, heard your story through Twitter. You write of your marriage with such beauty, though, that’s it hard for anyone not to feel the love within your family. I will make this pie tomorrow for my loved one… I know he will love it. Thank you for the reminder not to ever let kindness go unexpressed.It sounds like you and your husband always did an amazing job of sharing your love with each other.

  • Kimberly @ Poor Girl Eats Well

    Jennie…
    My heart is just breaking for you right now. Though it’s not the same, I lost my best friend (who was like my older sister) suddenly 5 years ago, and the shock & pain of that are things I’m still hoping to recover from someday. I can’t even imagine your pain right now. Just know that heaven now has a new angel, and he is watching & caring for you and your girls every second of every day. And remember that we are all here for you – whether it’s in pie-making solidarity or just being here during this difficult time, even if we’ve never really “met”.
    May you & your family find some comfort during this difficult time. And know that there will be hundreds of peanut butter pies made tomorrow, for Mikey. For you. <3

  • Sherry

    Jennie, I don’t believe I have visited your blog before, but I wanted to say how truly sorry I am. I lost my baby girl several years ago and I know this is difficult for you. It’s ok to let your heart break. It’s ok to break down crying (I think my Audrey had been gone over two months before I allowed myself to cry and then only when my 4 y/o son was at a friend’s house). I started a grief blog, a website, and made NICU blankets (my girl had been a NICU baby) to help myself through it. Pay attention to your heart and do what you instinctively know you need to do to grieve, whether it is making pies, taking long walks, helping others in their journeys or whatever. Pour yourself into your children. They will grieve differently than we do. They often tend to get their grieving done in short, intense spurts. Let them be happy when they can. This is a really tough road you never wanted to be traveling, but now must travel. I think it was about 18 months after losing my girl before I noticed I had a lot more good days than bad days… and her death had not been unexpected. I imagine it might have taken longer if it had been. I will pray for your heart to heal soon. <3

  • Tiffany

    A Creamy Peanut Butter Pie will be made in deep east Texas to honor your family, sending many thoughts and prayers your way.

  • A Facebook User

    Hi Jennie… I just read your tribute to your husband and it truly moved me. My wife is taking a nap right now, but I’m going to have to to wake her up now just to give her a hug and a kiss. I might even make your recipe, even though I’ve never had peanut butter pie! ;0) I posted this on Poor Girl’s blog, which is where I heard about you and your story:
    You’re breaking my heart here =0(… I can’t imagine losing my wife and I know how much she loves me too. There is something about Michaels and Jennifers… they just belong together. Yes, we share the same first names as your fellow blogger, as do my cousin Jennifer and her husband. I am so so sorry to hear of her family’s loss… I know that sounds cliche’, but words do not exist to describe the pain she’s going through, and words aren’t necessary. God bless her as she continues to keep his memory alive for herself and her children.

  • Christine

    You don’t know me, but I came across your blog through Poor Girl Eats Well, and I was compelled to offer you my deepest sympathies, and thanks for reminding us to let the ones we love know how much they mean to us.

  • Rose

    Dear Jennie
    I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you so much for sharing this. I will hug my loved ones a little tighter.Wish I could hug you too. You are beautiful.

  • Jana

    Dear Jennie,
    I came across your blog just today, through another blog I regularly read. My heart goes out to you and I pray for comfort, peace, and courage and strength to face this unexpected season of life.
    Sending you warm hugs across cyberspace,
    Jana

  • Tameka Downing

    I just wanted you to know that you and your family is in my prayers. My heart breaks for what you may be going through. It is great to see all the bloggers joining with you to pay respect to husband on Friday. I pray for peace for your family.

  • athena

    Jennifer, I found you through Helene Dujardin’s blog. I just want to say that I’m deeply sorry for your loss, and that your post (and the video of your husband and daughter dancing) moved me to tears. Sending thoughts of comfort and strength to you and your daughters now.

  • Christina

    I saw Tartlette’s post & I thought I’ll stop by to send you my condolences. I’m really sorry for your lost. My thoughts & prays are with you. *hugs*

  • Stephanie

    hello,
    we’ve never met, and this is my first time at your blog, but i wanted to also say that i am so very sorry for your loss. sending healing love and energy from madison, wi to you and yours.
    peanut butter pie is on the menu tomorrow.
    -stephanie

  • Angie Harrison

    As tears go down my face I clearly hear your message. Value each day and don’t let stuff get in the way. I baked today and I will hug my husband as I do each day. I hope tomorrow you feel the good wishes of people you have never met. Angie

  • Radhika

    Jennie, though we are total strangers I could feel your pain and love for Mikey. I pray that you and your family recover from this soon. Sending you a warm hug.

  • DorianTB

    Jennie, although I only know about you through Shauna’s blog, I’m so sorry to hear the sad news about your husband, and so moved by your blog and recipe in his memory. As a wife, mother, and gluten-sensitive woman, I can imagine what you must be going through right now. I wish there was something I could do to help you feel better during this terrible time. Our family is keeping your family in our thoughts and prayers.

  • Michelle

    Jennie,
    I’ll add my sympathy and support. My kids & I will be baking a peanut butter pie in honor of your Mikey, and my late husband, who’s been gone nearly 5 years, on Friday.

  • Gina Koller

    My heart goes out to you and your family. I know what you are going to having lost the love of my life in 2001. You will always cherish the time but you shall heal.
    I will make a pie too. My Danny loved peanut butter.

  • Lisa

    My heart aches for your loss.
    What a beautiful post.
    Cherish your precious memories, you
    Are in my thoughts and prayers.

  • Ulyssa

    “Till death do us apart…” You are free now of those vows. Condoleances, and may he rest in peace.
    As for the recommended pie, please have another one, in my stead, I prefer to keep healthy!

  • Amber

    We don’t know each other, but I just wanted to let you know how very sorry I am for your loss. I will be making a peanut butter pie tomorrow. And so will all my friends if I have anything to say about it.

  • Rachel

    I’m so deeply sorry for your loss. Sending so much love to you and your daughters to carry you through this painful time. It is doubly hard for you, I think, as you have your own grief to deal with as well as worrying about your girls. A friend of mine became a young widow with 2 young children very suddenly this spring… life is just so awful sometimes. I will make your pie and send love.

  • Electra @ vanillabeanlean.com

    This was a much needed reminder to be thankful for all we have and to remember that the present is all we’re given, and to show those we love how much we love them. Thank you for sharing.
    Please know that although I do not know you my heart breaks for you. This post brought me to tears.
    I will be making this Creamy Peanut Butter Pie for someone I love dearly and will think of you while I bake it. I’m sending healing thoughts your way.

  • Jana

    I don’t know you, I only saw a post from an inspirational acquaintance on Twitter. I can’t wait to make this tomorrow. Prayer’s to you and everyone around you who is feeling this deep loss.

  • Ellie@fitforthesoul

    Hi Jennie~~Woww I have truly no words to say but that I can see Mikey was such a great great daddy and husband~! I am touched that you’re celebrating his life and are being so strong in the midst of it all. I know many of us are praying for you and God bless your heart! <3 Thank you for these reminders too--what we have today is so important, and we need to treasure everything/everyone we have.

  • Ky Scrapacat

    God bless you and keep you. We can’t have peanut butter pie, but you can bet I will make one of our special dishes and remember that life is short. We will be thinking of you.

  • danielle

    I have been following your story along on twitter and through other blogs. You have an amazing number of people thinking of you and praying for you. I have become one of those people too. I am sending many prayers your way.

  • Chez Us

    Jennie,
    I think about you everyday, and wish there was something we could do. We are traveling for work the next few days but will be making peanut butter pie when we get home! If we can find it during our travels, we will be having a slice in honor of Mike.
    Take care & reach out if you need anything.
    Denise

  • Sarah

    I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I found you through pbfingers and your words resonate so strongly with me. At 21 I lost my dad a few weeks ago to terminal cancer and would give anything to make him his favourite dessert and share it with him right now. But he is with me in my heart, in everything I say think and do, and so is your husband. Take care, all the love in the world x

  • Amy

    I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family during this time. You are right, it is so important to take today, the only day we know that we have, to celebrate and appreciate our loved ones. Thank you for a beautiful reminder to all of us.

  • Caroline

    This is my first time reading this blog, and tomorrow will be my first time making a Creamy Peanut Butter Pie. I have no one to give it to, but I will find an unassuming person to receive it with the promise of paying it forward.
    “Let love & faithfulness never leave you. Tie them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart.” Proverb 3:3

  • janet bardsley

    Peanut butter pie for Mikey and Peanut brownies for my Peter, don’t put off their favourite baking. Remember Mikey and your date every time you make it.

  • Lauren

    I am so very sorry for your loss. We’ll be traveling Friday, but as soon as we arrive I’m going to the store to make this for the whole family. I also wanted to let you know that I believe you will see him again, as we witnessed our grandfather passing, he said hello to his wife who had been waiting for him for 7 years. Very sad, very beautiful, and very comforting. I wish you and your family peace, and am holding you all in The Light.

  • Janice Croze

    Sitting here stunned over your beautiful love and your tragic loss. Prayers to you and your girls. It is so hard that the more wonderful a person is, the more agonizing it is to lose them.

  • Nicole {Ms. Mary Mack}

    Dear Jennifer,
    My heart is so heavy reading this. I can only say how sorry I am for your loss. And your daughters… how incredibly sad. This was a beautiful tribute to your Mr. May he rest in peace. My thoughts are with you and your family.

  • Lise

    I am so very sorry for your loss. I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow as I make a peanut butter pie.

  • Emily S.

    Oh Jennie. I don’t know you, but as a person who has also experienced loss my heart goes out to you and your family. I know that no amount of words will heal the pain, and that ‘normal’ may never come. I can tell you I will add a peanut butter pie to my list of baked goods to do. I am so sorry, and I can only wish you find peace.

  • Alicia S.

    It breaks my heart that you have to go through this. Friday is a very special day for me. It is my 29th wedding anniversary and I will be spending it with my family, while you are grieving with yours. I will make this pie in honor of your family and say a prayer for you and your girls.
    Alicia

  • Dilek Dag

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m making a pie tomorrow in your honour as well as to remember how fragile life can be. Take care of you and your girls.

  • Kim Bee

    I just read this and it breaks my heart. I shall be making a pie tomorrow. My heart goes out to you and your kids. My sister in law lost her husband last year, his name was also Mike and he loved peanut butter as well. So mine will be for Mikey and Mike. Hope you can feel the virtual collective hug from all us fellow bloggers.

  • Emily

    I know there’s not a word that can be said to make things feel better. I lost my best friend and watched her widowed husband (and my friend as well) grieve, but I cannot even imagine what it truly feels like. From one Brooklyn girl to another, let me know if you ever need anything. Whether it’s one day from now, one month from now, years from now.

  • Jeanette

    Jennifer, I’m sorry for your loss. It is heartbreaking to go through the lost of your life partner, soul mate, best friend, your love one. Thank you so much for sharing and staying strong. It makes me learn to appreciate the ones I have around me and be more aware of the love and time I can give them. To spend more time with them as we’ll never know what would happen the next day, next minute or second. Please take care, my prayers are with you and your family. God Bless!!

  • Alexandra

    How devastating
    Came over from Ree’s tweet.
    I am so sorry. That sounds so hollow. I am so very sorry.
    I will pray for your family’s broken hearts.

  • BigFatBaker

    I know I have never shared a single thought with you, but you and your family has been on my mind for days. I wish you all the love and strength in the world. XO

  • Lark

    You are in my family Prayers!
    And you WILL see him again!
    Know that you and your loved ones are loved and prayed for through out this difficult time.
    God Bless.

  • Deea

    My husband’s very favorite treat is also peanut butter pie & I haven’t made it for him for at least 2 years. I will definitely do so in honor of your husband tomorrow. Thank you for sharing. Big hugs!

  • Nancy Augustine

    I can only try to imagine the pain and sadness you and your family are going through. Though I don’t have words that could possible express what my heart feels, I want you to no that I will be praying for you and sending you love from Greenville South Carolina. I will most definitely make this peanut butter pie and share it with my family tomm. Keeping you in our prayers,
    Nancy

  • SECooking

    I came from Ann’a blog and her thoughtfulness almost broke me to tears when i heard about your loss..I am so sorry, I hope, I hope that time will heal your wound!

  • Barefeet In The Kitchen

    I am so very sorry for your loss. I sit here with tears running down my face and feeling extremely grateful for all that I have been given. I am praying for your family tonight. I just made a list for the store and I’ll be making pie tomorrow.

  • Jamie @ Wokintime

    Thank you so much for sharing your story with us, it brought a tear to my eye and reminded me how much we should be thankful for every minute we have with each other. I will help you celebrate Mikey’s life and make a peanut butter pie. I’m sure he would be happy to see hundreds, perhaps thousands of people enjoying his favorite dish this week.

  • Jessica

    I just want to cry for you…and cry…and cry.
    My heart hurts for you.
    Just last night I had such precious moments with my boyfriend of 4 years. He put together an anniversary package for me that just melted my heart. Last night he was cuddly and lovey dovey, as he is most times, but I couldn’t help but think of how lucky I was during that time.
    It’s so hard to actually *think* that life can change so quickly and all of a sudden that person can just be gone…gone…
    OH. I just hurt for you. I hurt for you so, so, so much.
    I would love nothing more than to make this on Friday. In fact, I will do it. You have my word.
    Much love and hugs to you and your family…

  • Louise

    Dear Jenny,
    Words fail, but send you much healing warmth. To Mikey I will make this pie & share it with my loved one, but I hope that I stop taking him for granted, because we are never guaranteed tomorrow.

  • Kristine @ SugarBeams

    I will make and post this recipe on Wednesday. I will also pray for you and ask others to do the same that the honor you do your husband and the life you had together would grow. Thank you for allowing us all to be with you in this way…
    Kristine @
    SugarBeams

  • Mindy

    Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers! I cannot begin to imagine what you are going through, but I hope that you are comforted in knowing that there are those of us.. strangers even, who wish you and your family be filled with love and encouragement. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

  • Sasha @ The Procrastobaker

    Jennie, I know you dont know me at all (im new to your site, and will be coming here often from now certainly) but i learnt about your incredibly sad time from the brown eyed baker’s blog. Im 19 and lost my Dad from a big heart attack in February this year, theres so much I didnt know about his life and that I will always regret. Although its still incredibly tough the more time goes by the more I find I can remember the good times without the sadness overriding it. My thoughts are with your family and yourself, I hope to try out this pie very soon to show what little support I am able. Best wishes

  • Lluis Reyes

    Dear Jennifer,
    After a very serious car accident my life also change dramatically, I’m also a parent and my heart grieves with you all.
    Thanks to today’s technologie you have a round the world chain of support, I’ll bake the pie with all my love.
    May the Light shine on you all.
    P.S. Got your post through Chocolate for Breakfast and live in Cubjac, France

  • Dorothy

    There are no words. Like so many others, I don’t know you, but I’m on my way into the kitchen to start making a creamy peanut butter pie. May you find peace in your sorrow. And, for what it’s worth, there’s a lot of love going out in the world in the form of creamy peanut butter pies. You and and your family are in my prayers.

  • Tasha@ ThatsSoYummy

    Oh Jennie, I am so sorry for your loss. My heart , prayers, and thoughts go out to you, your little girls, and family. I will share this with my family and bake a peanut butter pie in honor of your love. Stay strong and know that you are loved.

  • Liz

    I was sent here from Amanda at i am baker and I just want to let you know you and your family are in my prayers today. I will make this pie and share it with my guys while I hold them a little closer than usual.

  • Carolyn

    Hi Jennifer,
    You don’t know me but Katrina of In Katrina’s Kitchen alerted me to this. I am so utterly sorry, I cannot properly express it. I just wanted to reach out.

  • suzanne

    jennie, i’m going to make this pie tonight for my family and tell everyone how much i love them. i’m sorry for the loss of your precious husband. God bless you and your family.

  • Amy

    I just jumped to your blog from carrots n cake, lured by her mention of creamy peanut butter pie, and now I find myself stunned, beyond saddened, and at a loss for words. I am so, so sorry for your loss. It’s incomprehensible and unfair. You and your family will be in our thoughts and prayers. And I will make the special pie very soon.

  • Kathleen Gregory

    My heart is breaking for you and your family. I have almost lost my husband twice due to heart attack (last one in Feb). I know to cherish every moment now. I will be fixing our Friday dinner in honor of Mikey. I can’t fix the pie due to dietary restrictions but everything will be fixed with love and prayers for you and yours.

  • Katie

    I’ve never met you, this is actually the first time I’ve ever been on your blog. But as I read about your loss, I cried at my desk, because it is clear how much love you shared with your husband, and how important he was to your daughters. I am so very sorry, and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers today and forward.

  • Rebecca Neely

    This is the sweetest thing I have heard of in a very long time. Too long in fact. I am soon to be married (late in life and not the first time)….and this peanut butter cream pie love reminds me to love deeply and forgive easily – and to always cherish every moment. God Bless.

  • Andrea D.

    I am so sorry for your loss. I know that sentence doesn’t say enough. There aren’t the right words to say how sorry I am about your husband dying

  • Alyson

    Jennifer,
    I am so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you and your girls but I pray the Lord will comfort you and give you peace during this time.
    I happened over to your blog after reading PW’s tweet. I would be so honored to make this pie in memory of your Mikey.
    Much love,
    Alyson

  • Michelle

    Jennie –
    I just stumbled upon your blog from Katrina (In Katrina’s Kitchen) and the first post I read was this. I’m so deeply sorry for your loss and I will go ahead and make this pie in honor of your husband and the love you shared. I hope you find at least a little bit of peace and happiness every day.

  • Pat Kuhn

    Jennie, my heart and prayers go out to you and I am thinking of you today. It will be 10 years on the 17th of this month that I lost my wonderful husband while we were out on our last date. He would have loved this pie and I will make it today for Frank and Mikey. Take care of your self and your family
    Love and Hugs,
    Pat Kuhn

  • Katie

    Jennie, my heart breaks for you and your girls. I am thinking of you. I wish there were words that could help.

  • Stephanie Johnson

    I will be bawling, laughing at myself and trying to make this tonight with my girls. So sorry for your loss, but it must feel wonderful to have known love like this. Many blessings to you.

  • Patrice

    So sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine. My heart breaks for you and your family. And yet I love your idea of a Pie for Mikey. There’s a lot of love being shared today in his honor! Let it wrap around you and lick those beaters! (no do not use a spoon, lick. them. lol) I also get wrapped up in the “too busy to…” of life, but I do believe your philosophy (and mine) of making every day count. We always hug, hold hands and tell each other “I love you” all the time, every single day. I’m sure your love was well known by your dear husband. And love never dies. okay enough teary-eyed, I’m off to make PIE! 🙂 “Laughter through tears…” that’s the best I think. XO

  • Jackie Stone

    Thank you for sharing your story with us, it is a beautiful and sad reminder that we are not guaranteed tomorrow with our loved ones. I will be making this pie!

  • Nicole

    I’m just a passerby but this was beautifully written! Just yesterday a co-worker asked me if I knew the Toby Keith Song My List and this just reiterates what she and I were talking about yesterday! I’m so sorry for your loss and now I’m in tears. Not a good thing at work!

  • blissmamaof3

    Done! You and your girls are in my heart today, please know that you have an entire cyberworld of support holding your family close right now. Many prayers are coming your way!

  • Cindy B.

    I’m so sorry for loss. I was checking my email when I came across this delicious- looking pie that started with “This peanut butter pie is for Mikey” posted by Michelle the Brown Eyed Baker. So I read the story behind it… When I lost my mom to breast cancer, I too learned to enjoy the moment whenever you can. And each day is a treasure you have to cherish it. My prayers are with you and your family.

  • Karen

    I will make this pie for my husband. Thank you for helping me remember how important everything we do really is.

  • Laurie Smith

    Jennifer -I am so sorry for your horrific loss. I lost my husband of 35 years to colon cancer two years ago on Valentine’s Day. I too believe, that we will be together again, but life is so different without him. I love your tribute to him and my prayers and tears are with you and your family.
    Laurie

  • Raquelle

    My fiancee’s favorite dessert just happens to be my frozen peanut butter and chocolate pie. I’m going to make it for him this weekend because I love him more than words can express. I want to share my sincere condolences to you and your family. I’m so sorry for your loss. This is a very touching tribute to your husband. And thank you so much for encouraging us to appreciate our loved ones.

  • Jody Gates

    I have a date with my husband tonight and will hug him like there is no tomorrow…because none of us are promised our next breath. Thank you for this touching post, praying for your family, I mean that!

  • Terri Steffes

    I am visiting for the first time and I will be making this pie tonight for my husband in your husband’s memory. I am also going to make sure I cherish the moments I have with him and try not to take any for granted. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

  • Martha T

    I’m thinking of you today, as are many, many people. I have gotten your peanut butter pie recipe four times so far. I know that Mikey is smiling down on you and that one day you will be smiling again.
    Suffering a sudden traumatic loss like you did (I did as well, but it was my 15-year old son) takes a long time to heal from, but you will reach the point where you don’t cry quite as often and the happy memories start to edge their way back in. Just hang in there and don’t rush the process. It has been almost 13 years for me and sometimes it is still overwhelming, but we get there. Reach out to your loved ones and let them give you comfort during this time and in the future.
    Hugs,
    Martha

  • The Slow Roasted Italian

    What a horrible tragedy. I am so sorry for your incredible loss. There are no words to express what I want to say, just silent tears.
    I am off to buy some ingredients for my pie. I will keep you in my prayers.

  • Jess Wakasugi {Life's Simple Measures}

    I know I can’t understand, but I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I’ve seen numerous blogs with peanut butter pies for today, so know that you are in so many thoughts and prayers, including my own. My best wishes go out to you and your family.

  • Deone

    from Dubuque, Iowa: your post brought many tears. I will be baking this pie tonight with my best friend to share with her, my two daughters, and my husband who is healing from cancer surgery. I needed this reminder to share sweetness with these people that I love so much. I hope you have the support you need in the years to come. So many express support immediately, but sometimes it is 3 months later when we really need it.

  • Christy

    I’m so sorry. This is the first I’ve heard of you or your blog, but I will be making the love of my life something with bavarian creme. He told me it was his favorite, and I have yet to do that for him. I have to do this. Today. For him.
    Thank you for reminding me not to *ever* take him for granted!!

  • wendy aka frugalhomeschooler

    *Tears* So sorry for your loss. I’ve been married for 13 years and it’s so easy to take them for granted. We love peanut butter pie too. I will pick up the ingredients today and make one for my dear husband. Prayers and blessings to you.

  • Diane

    Jenny,
    My heart goes out to you. I can’t even begin to image your loss. My father died when my mother was 43 (very close to my age now). I never quite understood her emotions until I got married. Now 32 years later I believe she is still in love with him.
    When I make this pie I will think of you and the love you have for Mike. I know this is part of your healing process. Time is precious and every moment counts. A lesson I learned the minute my Dad died and changed my life forever.
    Warm wishes,
    Di

  • Barb

    I hope that one day I can find a love as deep and precious as yours. I’ll make this wonderful pie for my family and dream of the day that I’ll love and be loved like this.

  • Correna

    Jennifer, I am so desperately sorry for your loss 🙁 Nothing can heal it, but time will make it easier I promise. You will be together again someday, until then, hold those memories of you walking hand in hand, close to your heart xxxx

  • Gaylyn

    Something precious to hold on to, that date. To have the picture of his hand, that you held. What a special memory. I bet he feels close on every hot day, and you never mind the heat again.
    So sorry for your loss, thank you for sharing so beautifully and openly. You opened your heart and truly loved, and so that love will always be with you, as will his love. And thank God for peanut butter pie to remind us.

  • Linda Wiggins

    Everytime I hear of someone losing their beloved spouse, I reflect on my own life. I have been married almost 42 years, to the love of my life. When a friends husband passed away suddenly a few years ago, even though I wasn’t close to him, it made me realize how short life really is. In my grief, it wasn’t who died, but who would remain behind. It made me realize that at some point in our lives, my husband or I, would know the grief of losing someone they have cared so much for. So for today, I will be sad for you, knowing that at some point in time, everyone will go through this pain. Prayers for you and your children, may God be with you.

  • mary

    take responsibility…. This may have contributed to his heart attack. There is nothing Healthy about this recipe. Gosh.

  • Judy Pyeatt

    Jennie, this is so strange to receive this information about your peanut butter pie this very day! My husband just emailed this to me.
    I have made him a peanut butter pie for this weekend – his favorite of all desserts!
    Dwain and I both know what it is like to lose our spouse because we both lost ours at an early age. Both of them were killed in an auto accident. We have been married for 17 years and enjoy every day together. We never take one day for granted.
    Again, it is very interesting to get this today. I had recently made a couple of PB pies and was saving one in the freezer to have later. A friend of mine had surgery and I made dinner for her and her husband and decided to send Dwain’s extra PB pie with the meal to my friend. When my husband saw I was giving away his pie (saved for a later date), I got tickled at him for the sad look at giving away his pie – however, he was happy to do it for a friend. BUT, I made him another two this week and plan to serve one tonight. The timing is so interesting.
    May God bless you and give you happiness.
    Blessings,
    Judy Pyeatt
    Cleveland, TN.

  • Brandon

    Someone once asked me “what can a woman cook for you that will impress you”, and I responded “if she can make an awesome peanut butter pie, I’ll hold on to her forever”. I read the article on CNN, and I am so sorry for your loss. As hard as it may be, try to enjoy your pie today and remember all of the good times and memories that pie represents!

  • Teri

    God bless you and your girls, Miss Jennie. Since I work Friday nights, our family night is on Saturday, so I will be making this tomorrow night, and thinking of your Mike. Thanks for sharing this with us all.

  • swampgirl

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I love peanut butter pie! I would suggest offering a version of the recipe that is lower in fat and calories.

  • Lauren

    I am so sorry, Jennifer. I just started following your blog and am praying for you and your family. You will definitely get to see Mikey someday.

  • Elin

    This is a beautiful post. I am sorry for your loss. Will pray for strength for you and your gals during this time. Thank you for sharing Mike’s favourite Creamy Peanut Butter Pie.

  • Miles

    I don’t cook, much less pies. But today I am going to make my first pie – a peanut butter cream pie. I did not even know what a spring form pan was until I finally asked for help at Sur LaT able. Oh, and I changed the name to Mikey Pie.

  • Lacy

    Jennie I can’t begin to imagine how you are feeling right now, my heart is breaking for you. I found your blog through Katrina’s Kitchen and Ann’s Cooking Healthy For Me. I’m sure you have friends and family who are supporting you at home right now but also know there is plenty of love and support in the foodie community as well. My thoughts and prayers go out to you & your family today. I’m so sorry for your loss.

  • Laura

    My heart aches for your loss and I’m holding back tears. I don’t even know you, but your hurt is felt in the deepest of places. I am praying for you.
    Dear Lord, please be with this lovely lady and her gals. Come close to them and comfort them and help them to know that you love them, that all things happen for a reason, and that you make all things come out for good no matter what. Please bless her life. Amen.

  • Anilu

    I’m very sorry for your loss, Katrina posted about you on her blog. My prayers are with you and your daughters, I hope you find the comfort you need.
    XOXO from Perú

  • Lynda A. Bell

    My thoughts and prayers are with you. God’s love will caring you through all the days of your life…He is with you in the good and in the bad..Always, Lynda Bell

  • Stacey

    Please accept my deepest sympathy for your family’s tragic loss.
    I lost my husband the same exact way this past February. Our daughter is 15. My advice is lean on your family and good friends – that’s what they’re there for. Cry and scream as much as you want – it’s nature’s relief valve. Read Widow to Widow by Genevieve Davis Ginsburg. Join a bereavement group because no one knows what you’re going through except those who’ve been there, too. Take care of yourself and don’t be afraid to ask for help when you need it.

  • Jennifer

    I’m so sorry to find your blog under these circumstances. My prayers are with you and the girls. I will be making this pie with my 3-year-old for Daddy.

  • Katrina @ Warm Vanilla Sugar

    This is a beautiful post Jennie. I’m so sorry for your loss. Life can really throw these unexpected curve balls at us sometimes and I know it can be hard to cope. Everyone is supporting you. You are such a talented blogger and a strong woman and I’m so happy to have even read your posts over time. Stay strong!

  • Cathy

    What a loss for you and your family. You wrote a beautiful remembrance and all of us who make this pie today and in the future will remember him, and the love you shared.

  • Monica

    So sorry for your loss – you and your girls. I love the video of your husband dancing your with youngest girl. God bless you and godspeed to your hubby. 🙂

  • John B

    today marks the 2nd anniversary of the day my mother passed away. it was hard to read this knowing there is so much pain out in the world and too many of us have experience premature losses.
    i know you don’t know me, and i don’t know you or your family, but i love you and will be making this very soon.

  • Megan

    Never read your blog before today, but I’m so glad I was brought here. You’re very right – nothing is promised. Tomorrow is guaranteed to nobody. I think you’ve inspired many, many people to take nothing for granted. I’ll be thinking of you while you’re healing. My heart hurts for your loss…

  • Amy

    This is not at all how I wish to discover another blog. My deepest sympathy for you and your children. There are no words…

  • Craftilicious

    My husbands hates peanuts, but I’m making it anyway – I’ll do the eating, he can do the hugging.
    So sorry for your loss and hope you find a new kind of normal you can cope with.

  • Tara

    My heart breaks for you, Jennie, your daughters, family, and friends. I’m so sorry for your loss and I hope that you find the comfort you need in the people you love and who love and support you (like the blogging community) during this unfathomable time.

  • April

    I just watched the last dance post. I have never read your blog before and I don’t know you or your family. Still I’m sitting here bawling my eyes out (at work). My heart goes out to you and your family. Wish I could give you a big hug. Take care, A New Reader

  • Melissa

    My heart breaks for you and your girls. Your husband looks like he was a wonderful man and father. I am sending you my prayers for strength today. I cant comprehend the pain you must be going through.

  • Rachbakes

    My thoughts and love are with you Jennie. I’m so sorry for your lose and I’ll be making this pie this weekend to celebrate and show my love to the ones around me. I hope you’re doing as well as you could be in this situation, and my thoughts and prayers are with you.

  • Amanda

    Jennifer, I am new to your blog and my heart breaks to read this post. I am so very sorry. I cannot imagine what you’re going through. Coincidentally, I made a peanut butter (ice) cream pie last night, to celebrate my mother’s birthday today. Thank you for reminding me that every day is a precious gift to be thankful for. Thinking of you, and sending you hope and strength.
    Amanda

  • Katie @ Changing Patterns

    Hi Jennie,
    I’ve just come across your blog for the first time and I wanted to say how sorry I am for you and your daughters’ loss. I lost my father last October and it still seems like yesterday. I miss him everyday, but know that he lives on in my heart. Let your daughters know that their father will always be there in their memories and in their dreams. These are terrible times, but they only make us stronger, more appreciative people. Take comfort in friends and family, know that you are surrounded by love and that even strangers like me are sending warm thoughts your way.

  • Leann

    Our thoughts and prayers are with you today… and we shared this for you, too. May God comfort your heart in the way only He can.

  • Celia

    Jennifer, You don’t know me, but I really felt I needed to let you know that I am so, so sorry for your and your daughters’ loss. I will keep you all in my prayers these coming weeks and months.

  • amanda

    I came upon this article through a link on cnn and i will definitely be making this pie for mikey and you and your daughters will be in my thoughts and prayers.

  • RachelJ

    I don’t know if I have time to make a pie for Mikey today but I wanted to reach out and show soliditary in supporting you and your family through this time. My brother suddenly died five years ago and I have been healing through food and blogging ever since. We’ve never traded comments on blogs or snarky tweets but we didn’t have too for me and the many, many others who want you to know we are rallying for you. Be strong, be well, be still and know you have an army standing in the wings behind you. With all my heart, Rachel.

  • Valentina

    i’m making this pie immediately. and as i share it later with family and friends we’ll be sending you hugs, love and comfort. i’m so very sorry for your loss.

  • Katie @ Changing Patterns

    I just read your “about” page and saw that you lost your father at 23…I should add that I’m 24…so we both know how it feels. It doesn’t make it hurt any less, but you seem like a very strong person. Continuing to send warm thoughts over to your family.

  • Judi Human

    So very sorry for your loss. Even in your time of sorrow I like your message. Life is short and we need to express to our loved ones how much we care before the candle blows out. I’m makeing a Peanut Butter pie this weekend for Mickey and my husband. Stay strong, as I know you will, and hold your daughters close. I hope Mickey can see all the pies that are going to be made in his honor. Judi, Bend, Oregon

  • Lori H

    My heart & prayers go out to you. I think this is the neatest idea in rememberance of your husband that I have ever seen. I will be making this pie shortly. My husband also loves peanut butter pie! It’s so easy to say “tomorrow” & we shouldn’t take “tomorrow” for granted for it may never come.

  • Kym

    So sorry for your loss. Lots of prayers coming your way and I will make 3 pies today if that will help.

  • Tim

    I’m sorry to hear of your loss. My grandmother used to make us peanut butter pie. It has always been my favorite. She passed away in 99 at 90, I never got the recipe from her, wish I had. However this one sounds just as amazing as hers. I look forward to making your pie and sharing it with my loved ones in Honor of your husband. Sending good thoughts and hugs your way.
    Tim

  • kat

    I am so incredibly sorry for your loss as your love for him comes through so palpably in your writing. The best advice I was given over losing someone you love was you will never get over it but one day, you will learn to live with it. I will pray for you and your family and I hope you know how many people are sending their love.

  • Sara

    Your posts have made me weep and reflect deeply. I wish there was something I could say or do to help ease the pain you must be feeling. Please know that the God of all comfort cares what you’re going through. May He, along with the beautiful memories you have to cherish, be your source of strength as you walk this path.
    Praying for you today!

  • Kelly

    I’m so sorry for you loss. Thank you for the reminder to not take our loves one for granted. It’s so easy to get caught up in day to day stuff… My thoughts are with you and your family.

  • erin

    Remembering what made our loved ones smile, laugh and enjoy is the best way to keep them close…bravo for knowing that during such a hard time. Sending warm thoughts to you and yours.

  • Louise Cook

    So, so sorry to hear of you and your children’s loss. Will make Mikey’s favorite pie and think of you and him always everytime I serve it. Let your friends help; they may bug you sometimes but it helps them and you.

  • Carolanne

    I’ve stumbled upon your blog somehow and want to share my sincere condolences in the loss of your husband. What is strange is how I came across your blog to discover Peanut Butter Pie…I’m moving in with my boyfriend tomorrow feeling nervous and excited. His favorite dessert is Peanut Butter Pie. For a multitude of reasons right now, I know I must grab each day with him and hold them tight. The first meal together in our home is going to include Peanut Butter Pie. I’m so sorry, and will be keeping you in my thoughts…

  • Grace

    My condolences to you and your family. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this difficult time.

  • Joanne and Adam

    Our love and hearts go out towards you and your family. May you find peace.
    We have never met, but please know, we are there for you.
    With all of our thoughts behind you,
    Joanne and Adam Gallagher

  • Kathleen

    So sorry…. I ate a peanut butter sandwich today in honor of him and hugged my family. Take care.
    Kath

  • sara

    I made my pie and I am thinking of you and your family. Thank you for reminding me that life is short and we need to live each day like it is our last.

  • Margie

    Jennie, thinking of you and sending you prayers and hope during this difficult time.
    I made the pie this afternoon. It’s beautiful!

  • Corrie

    Jennifer,
    I am so, so sorry for your loss. I know that we don’t know each other, but I hope that everyone’s kind words of sympathy, love, and encouragement offer you comfort. Please take care of yourself and your family even though it might be hard to rest and feel peaceful and healthy.
    Thank you for sharing these memories and this lovely recipe.
    I wish you and your daughters the best.

  • cindy

    So sorry for your devastating loss. My family lost my dad suddenly in an accident when I was 3yrs old. Even though I was only a little one when it happened, the grief that struck my family was tangible. I can only offer my thoughts and hope for you all. It’s not something you can ever get over, but with time the memories, as bittersweet as they are, will be a treasure.

  • Aquí

    I found your blog through l’ve and olive oil and I’m so very sorry for your loss! I send all my love to you and your family!

  • Lorraine

    I am so sorry for your loss and the loss of your children. I can offer my prayers for you and your family and have made a pie in your husband’s honor this evening. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  • L.S.

    Words cannot express how sorry I am for your loss. We will make pie and I will hug my entire family. Prayers for you.

  • Julie

    I’m so sorry, and my heart goes out to you. This is a beautiful tribute–I will make this pie tonight.

  • Kelly

    I just made my pie. I know it’s a small comfort but I had to do what I could to let you know you are on my mind constantly right now.

  • Christina

    Jennie,
    I am so very sorry for your loss. Today would have been my baby sister’s 23rd birthday. She died 6 years ago in a freak car accident. And while there are no words to make the loss of someone we love better or easier, I can tell you that all the memories, good and bad, help with the sadness and pain. Sending hugs your way.
    -Christina

  • deb

    we do not know each other, but i have shed tears for you and your children this day. As I share this pie with my husband this evening I know that I will do so with the utmost thankfulness for our lives together and I will think of Mike. Stay strong.

  • Lynsey

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Your love and devotion to Mikey is evident in every word you have written. This is such a beautiful tribute to him and it is so well written. I will be keeping you, your girls and your family in my thoughts and prayers. May God give you the strength to get through this difficult time and also to be strong for your girls. We will be having peanut butter pie tonight in Mikey’s memory.

  • Vanessa @FrenchFoodieMom

    Jennie,
    I so wish I were there with you today to offer you whatever small comfort my hand or my hug might bring. I haven’t stopped thinking of you and the girls since we spoke on Monday and baking today just seems like the perfect way to honor Mikey. I wish we’d had a chance to meet, to bring our families together for a meal, to watch the kids play as we lingered over coffee and dessert. We’ll be eating pie tonight in Chicago and joining you in spirit. You are one of the strongest and most passionate women I know, someone I look up to and strive to be like, but please know that if you need anything at all, you need only ask.

  • Andy Moyssidis

    Dear Jennifer,
    Saw this on Facebook and although we don’t know each other, I couldn’t know what to feel if my husband passed away. My heart goes out to you and just wanted to send my condolences, and sending prayers to you and your family.

  • connie

    Mikey has some online friends….I wondered why I my in box was full of peanut butter recipes “For Mikey”. That’s how I ended up here on your blog. I am so sorry that I had to find your blog on such a sad occasion. You and Mikey are loved, that’s evident. I love good people and I hate when the leave much, too much, early.
    Sending you love and comfort and wishing there was a way to bring him back or ease your pain. They make it look so easy in the movies but in real life it sucks, big time.
    I don’t eat peanut butter so instead of baking a pie I’ll donate the cost of the ingredients in his name.
    Hugs

  • Cat

    I just came across this. I will post about it, maybe not today but as soon as I get a second. (I made another type of peanut butter cream pie and my custard is cooling)
    My heart and thoughts go out to you. I (like everyone else in the world) often take for granted a lot of things. Sometimes I guess I forget tomorrow night may not come. I’d hate to think my last words to man meat would be curses about dirty dishes and bad jokes.
    Best wishes, I hope you find your way to a new normal. Maybe not today, tomorrow or even next year but someday. You’ll get there just hold onto each day until the next one arrives and one day you’ll wake up and realize your almost there! <3

  • heather

    peanut butter pie has been made, with your recipe, in your husbands honor.
    your family is in the hearts of thousands, and mikey will be remembered. xo

  • Katie

    So very sorry for your loss. I don’t know you, you do not know me, but you and your girls have been in my thoughts all week. Wishing you all the strength, support, and love you need during this difficult time.

  • Kathryn

    Dear Jennie, this is my first visit to your beautiful blog. I, too, found it through other bloggers posting beautiful pies in honor of your Mikey today. Your eloquent words of love are so touching. Sending love and prayers…

  • Maya

    Jennie, this is my first time here and my heart, thoughts and prayer go out to you and your daughter. I am so very sorry for your loss but the way you’ve decided to celebrate your husband’s life is so beautiful and touching.

  • Cathy G.

    Just saw the article on CNN Eatocracy and followed the link here. Please accept my heartfelt condolences on the loss of your beloved husband. You and your beautiful daughters are in my thoughts and prayers. This pie will be made for my two daughters, who I say “I Love You” to every single day.

  • Kristin Jennings

    My heart breaks for you, dear. I saw your post yesterday, and my best friend is flying into town tonight. We’ve decided we’re going to spend quality time together and make your peanut butter pie. I hope you and your family find peace of mind, heart, and soul soon.

  • Stacie Smith

    We’ve never met, but I was really touched by this blog post. Thank you for the reminder to cherish every day and every minute we have with those we love. To me, your call for peanut butter pies is a lovely symbol for everything meaningful in your writing. Thank you for putting yourself and your experiences out there in such a way that allows me to honor you, your husband, and your family while honoring my own family at the same time. My pie is not pretty, but I think it will taste pretty good. It was a joy.
    Stacie

  • Bea @ CancunCookies

    I’m sorry for your loss. I just found your blog through Manda’s blog, i am mommy. My thoughts and prayers and with you and your family, may God bless your life and hold you during this hard time.

  • Kristen Acosta

    I’m so sorry about your husband. My prayers go out to you and your girls. I just got done making this pie for my husband and kids along with GIANT hugs and kisses.I can’t even begin to imagine what you or your girls are going through and I’m so sorry you have to go through it. With my deepest sympathy, Kristen

  • Jen

    Jennie,
    I don’t really know you, I’ve only discovered you recently because a friend of mine talks so highly of you. I can’t tell you how deeply sorry I am for your loss. When I see a tweet or a comment or a blog posting about Mikey I just break. I can’t imagine what you are going through and pray that you will be given the strength and support to see the other side of this. Peanut Butter Pie is on our menu tonight.

  • Roz@weightingfor50

    Dear Jennifer, I’ve only just found your blog through Maris’ site. I couldn’t stop by and not send along my heartfelt condolences on your recent loss! Though you don’t know me, please know that you and your family are in my thoughts!!!

  • Ericka

    Jennie: I’ve never read your blog before now – I just followed a link posted by a Facebook friend. However, I cannot help but feel touched (with tears streaming down my face). I don’t know if it means much coming from a stranger, but I am so sorry for your loss and send comforting thoughts your way. I am most definitely making a peanut butter pie tonight for my Mikey – in honor of yours. 😉 Thank you for the beautiful reminder of the fragility of life.

  • Melissa S.

    I cannot even begin to imagine your grief and sadness…but I can say I am sending healing thoughts and prayers to you. And I am headed to my kitchen right now to make a Creamy Peanut Butter Pie. May your beautiful memories comfort you.

  • Peggy Lee

    My precious husband, who is the most wonderful person I’ve ever known, came home from work exhausted tonight and laid on our bed for a quick power nap, something he rarely does. I had a million things to do, but you had been on my mind all week and I was feeling a new level of gratefulness in my life. I threw my chores and cares to the wind and crawled into our bed beside him, the sound of his dainty little snores music to my ears. I laid there beside him, smelling his neck, watching him, and cried tears of joy for me and tears of utter sadness for you and your girls. You will probably never know the lives you have touched, but your tragedy has changed me and the way I think about “TODAY.” I’m betting it has changed the lives of countless others, too. I hope you can take a tiny, tiny bit of comfort in that.

  • Kim

    Jennifer,
    You don’t know me, but my heart breaks for you now.
    On an October morning in 2005, I kissed my husband as I left for work on his day off. When I got home that evening, I found him, in his still running pickup, in our backyard. He’d had a massive heart attack at 49 and the world as I knew it came to an end.
    Please know that you are being lifted in prayer.

  • Kristy snider

    Peanut butter pie is one of my favorites…my family will have some tomorrow. I only wish it could heal your loss…I can’t justifiably say that I could understand….the ‘one last dance’ was beautiful….I’m glad you had a recent date…..’no’ words will do here…..I wish you peace im his memory.

  • Mary K. Smalley

    Dear Jennifer,
    My husband dropped dead of a heart attack when I was 35 yrs. old and had five children, the youngest was 5 yrs. old. I am now 71 yrs. old, am remarried. My children are all grown and I now have four grandchildren and four great grandchildren.
    I want you to know the pain will lessen with time. For me it took five years for the fish hooks in the belly pain to subside. I have lived a very adventursome life. Read my blog; marysfarmreport.com for some of my many adventures. Life indeed goes on!
    It begins with getting up every morning. Which I know is not easy for you now.
    Just know you do have a future!
    Love, Mary

  • Chrissy

    I came across your blog through Tidy Mom. You have such a strenghth. I made a peanut butter pie and prayed for you and your family while I was putting it together. May you find peace and comfort in those around you. I will continue to pray for you.

  • courtney

    crying through your post. my heart goes out to you and yours. i hope peace finds its way into your heart as fast as it can! *hugs* from colorado!

  • Fran Tabor

    Thank you for sharing this intimate slice of your life. I am sorry for your loss, and plan to make a peanut butter pie in honor of you, your husband and your children. You truly never know.

  • Tina

    Your love for Mikey shows through in your post. I’ve never made Creamy Peanut Butter Pie, but will do so tonight. I’m so sorry for your loss.

  • Kim

    My thoughts and prayers are with you Jennie. Life will never be the same, and it will start with putting one foot in front of the other, some days you might not be able to.
    Your post touched my heart, and in honor of your dear sweet Mikey, I made this pie for my dear sweet husband. I read him your post and will hug him extra tight tonight and every night for the duration of the time we have left together on this planet.
    Sending lots of love your way. God will see you through this. xoxoxoxox

  • Shea Goldstein

    Beautiful post. I am so extremely sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers….and peanut butter pie will be baked in this house.

  • Heidi Oehler

    We don’t know each other, but my friend told me of your recent loss. My family has been thinking about you and wish peace for your family. So sorry for your loss. I will be making this pie with lots of love in mind. Happiness and smiles will return to you and your children one day.
    Love- Heidi

  • Cheryl Akins

    Oh Jennie, I am so sorry for you and your children’s loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Take care and be strong. Know that he’ll always be with you.

  • Eric

    I’m making this tonight for my partner in memory of your husband. As we enjoy it together, I will be sure to tell him how much I love him and will hug him tonight like there is no tomorrow. May you find strength from all who are also making this tonight in your late husband’s memory.

  • London

    1 pie coming up but I have to admit I will be adding an extra ingredient. A tear of sadness for your loss, a tear in awe of your strenth and a tear of thankfulness for reminding me how each day is so precious.

  • Carla Williams

    Jennie, your article is so precious… I shared with my friends on my fb page… but I just shared YOUR link… I hope you don’t mind… if you do, just send me a msg and I will take it off…
    I commented: Do NOT put off until tomorrow what you can do today…. and that’s all I said then I posted your link…
    My deepest sympathies to you and your family…

  • Marie

    So sorry to hear of your loss. You and your children are in my thoughts and prayers.
    God bless you and your children.
    I will make the pie for Mikey and for my husband who has MS

  • cecedon

    We soon will be eating Mikey’s delectable pie. I’m quite certain my family will be changed forever and they will be requesting this pie more often. Today, just before I was getting ready to write all the ingredients down and see what I needed I ran across a notebook I use to write things down I want to remember. This notebook hasn’t been looked at in quite some time. Inside I found something, that I can only assume was meant to be found today. Here it is….
    Death leaves a heartache no on on earth can heal,
    Love leaves a memory that no one can steal.
    I am glad you invited all of us to be a part of Mikey’s love and spread that love among our families with his favorite pie.
    My prayers are with you all.

  • Liza Delon

    My heart and prayers go out to you. May God Bless you with peace. I can only imagine what you are going through and pray for you.
    Thank you so much for sharing your feelings so eloquently so that we also may know Mikey and the love you both shared.
    Blessings.

  • mary (sisters running the kitchen)

    hi Jennifer,
    I clicked over here from How Sweet Eat’s. So, so sorry to hear about your loss. Your post is beautifully written and it is obvious that it comes from your heart. I love your line, “Today is the only guarantee we can count on”.
    I want to extend my condolences to you and your family.

  • Karin

    Just saw this and it’s Friday night, but my husband loves peanut butter and I will make this for him – in your husband’s name tomorrow. My heart hurts for you and I wish you peace.

  • Dana

    Jennie, you are so brave and inspiring. To be dealing with one of the most devastating realities anyone could ever face and still write something so beautifully moving is simply incredible. Everyone here is thinking about you and your family and for every one comment, there are 100 more moved by your strength.
    Thank you for reminding us all how fragile life is. I will eat this delicious peanut butter pie with my family this weekend, while thinking of you and yours. xo

  • Katie

    I just found your blog today, but my heart broke for you. It broke again when I thought about how I had spent all morning fighting with my boyfriend before he left for work…. and how much I regret that now. I don’t have the ingredients for peanut butter pie, but I am headed straight to the kitchen to make peanut butter cookies right now.
    Thank you for sharing this post. You’re in my prayers.

  • KatieBee

    I am so terribly sorry for your loss. Was it the energy of the universe that brought me to you this week (and only through your utterly amazing tomato jam)? A tomato jam that I painstakingly made today, unknowing to the heaviness in your heart.
    As you begin this next life journey, embrace the energy of your beloved..he will be in places you least expect and those that are everyday…a breeze, a hummingird, a sunset…may you be comforted by love.

  • Penny Cox

    I just saw this article and it took my breath. As on this Friday, I am returning to the beach where my husband Steve was playing with our children in the water and his heart stopped beating. I know how in an instance your life becomes full of ‘what if’ and ‘i wish’. One more chance to make a pie, one more chance to tell them you love them, one last time to see his beautiful smile. I love this tribute to your husband Mike. I will make this for my children while we are at the beach and tell them your story. May the Lord bring you peace and know you are not alone.

  • T

    What a wonderful way to celebrate a very well loved one. I’m in. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending positive energy your way.

  • gemma

    i am going to say a prayer for you and your girls tonight. i came upon your blog through shauna’s gluten free, and as i was reading her post i realized that we live in the same neighborhood.

  • Georgie

    Tears filled my eyes the moment I heard about your loss, trough a mutual blogger. We really don’t know one another – other then the occasional tweet. I have always had the fondest thoughts of you and have admired your writing, wit and you post. I’m sure Mikey was equally as talented, as kind and as loving as you. Sending you the warmest hugs and sweetest prayers to you and your family.

  • Janey

    Wow, there are no words I can really offer, I am so sorry for you and your family. I will keep you in my prayers.

  • Eat.Pray.Mommy.

    Jennie, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I cannot imagine your heartfelt loss. Thank you for having the courage to reach out for support (that is so hard for me to do!) I made a couple pies today in Mikey’s honor.

  • shannon

    Dear Jennie,
    Having just lost my Father a year ago, (also young) my heart goes out to you and your family. You will be in my prayers! Because my Husband wont eat PB anything, I made him his favorite Strawberry Rhubarb Pie. May God’s peace and love and support of your family be with you. With Love from Osceola, Wisconsin.

  • Sharon

    Dear Jennie, from here in Australia your story has reached my heart and brought tears to my eyes. You are an amazing woman who has touched the world. Bless you and your family through this difficult period – i will be making the peanut butter cream pie tonight for my husband and family, reminding them of all that is truly important. Kindest Regards Sharon

  • Evelyn

    I’m so sorry for your terrible loss. I went through this myself…it’s been 41/2 years since my Sweetie left this world. Worst day of my life. You will survive. It isn’t going to be easy but you will be ok. He is ok…in a beautiful place now with no more tears or worry. Blessings on you and your family.
    Evelyn

  • Shaon @ Elizabeth & Co.

    I am so sorry for your loss. Sending prayers and healing wishes to your family.

  • sarita

    i’m so sorry for you loss – and those words are from one who knows your loss. two years ago my husband died. Three weeks before we took a trip on Amtrak (first train trip for us) to see our son and his wife in Oregon. What a healing trip it was for us. Then reality set in. I don’t know anything about you or your family, or the circumstances you are in right now. Please listen to your heart.

  • Jen

    Thank you for sharing your love and loss. It’s a great reminder to value what matters most. I did make a pie for Mikey. My thoughts are with you and your family.

  • Kirsty

    thank you for being vulnerable and sharing this story. Its not a camp you want to be in or have anyone else in it but once you are its comforting to know there are others. Today would be my parents 33rd anniversary, my mom passed away 10 years ago, but I still count it.

  • Elizabeth

    Jeannie, my thoughts and prayers are with you in your time of loss. I found your blog from “Recipe Roundup” notifying us of your loss. Please know that we all are feeling your sorry at this time and pray that you will find peace and strength in the days to come. Your husband is not gone for he will be watching over you as your guardian angel in the days ahead. Hold on to the wonderful memories he gave you and you will always feel his presence. I will be baking this pie in honor of your wonderful husband.

  • Kate

    I made my pie, in honor of Mikey (and all the Mikeys that have gone before and surely will go after). In the blink of an eye your life can change so suddenly. Thank you for sharing a little bit of you during this incredibly difficult time for you and your kids and your family. Warm thoughts for healing and peace.

  • Gordon Phillips

    This touched me deeply – and although I can’t feel exactly your pain – I know it.
    The pie is in the fridge right now.

  • Michelle Daniels

    Jennie…I made Mikey’s pie today and shared it with someone I love. You and your girls will see him again, this I know with all my heart. Thank you for sharing these tender thoughts and memories. Your family is in my prayers ~ big hugs ~

  • dig this chick

    I haven’t been here before and feel strange meeting you now but feel inclined to tell you that I am thinking of you and your family…ack, that doesn’t sound like enough but, really, I know strength in thought, power in support. I hope you feel the energy beaming your way from the online community.
    Much love, Nici

  • Renny

    My Google Reader has been inundated with peanut butter pies today, bringing me to your blog where I tell you I am sorry for your loss, and you are 100% correct,you WILL see your husband again. When you do, you two can eat an entire peanut butter pie together.
    Now I’m off to make a pie. God bless.

  • Maria

    It is not easy. But yet, as women we are with you in spirit and in thought. I don’t live too far away from you. I don’t know you per say, yet, my heart is breaking because of the pain you must be feeling. I would like to send you and your beautiful girls a great deal of prayers. Prayers for strength and for peace. Saying goodbye is hard. Being taken by surprise is hard. Knowing that you will not wake up next to him ever again on this earth is hard. The memories will become sharper and more intense as the days progress. But you have been given a gift…you have shared your husband with all of us. Thank you for giving us a bit of your blessing.
    Stay calm through it all. Know that alone you are not. Love is something that is surrounding you at this moment.
    I will make the pie, as a symbol of your love.

  • Christine

    I am so sorry for your loss…i just found your blog today thru Bakerella i plan to make the pie this week!!

  • Teresa

    My heartfelt sympathies for your loss. You are a strong and lovely woman, Jennie. I wish you comfort and strength in the days ahead.

  • Momacita

    I am so sorry for your loss. My husband passed away from a heart attack when he was 36 and left me to raise two young children. I can emphathize with you. No one can understand the pain. No.One. It will take you many years to heal. Stay Strong.

  • Leanne @ Healthful Pursuit

    I came to your blog from Jessica’s at How Sweet it is. Words cannot describe the emotions your post brought over me. The strength you’ve maintained throughout this horrid time is amazing. Thank you for sharing your story with us and reminding us all how important it is to live in the moment and be thankful for each breath. Thank you, my thoughts and prayers go out to your family 🙂

  • Yuri Sagawa

    We’ve never met, I’ve never even read your blog, but I heard about your loss from the Gluten Free Girl website. I am so deeply sorry for your loss my heart goes out to you and your girls. Tonight I made an amazing carob cookie, peanut butter, honey and vanilla ice cream 5 layer sundae. As my partner and I ate it together, exclaiming over how delicious it was and how we’d never made anything like it, we said “to Mikey and Jennie!”. You are all in our hearts. xxoo Yuri

  • Tiffany

    I am so sorry for your loss and my deepest sympathy is with you. Wednesday was my husband’s birthday and I was going to wait until the weekend to make him cupcakes. And then I read this posting. I knew I had to make the cupcakes that day since you never know what will happen tomorrow. I made cupcakes instead of a pie, but your message was taken to heart. I truly hope all of the outpouring of support is helping you through this.

  • Colleen

    I am so sorry. I keep promising my hubby Rum and Raisin ice cream. I will get the ingredients tomorrow. May you have courage through this time.

  • Kellie

    My heart is breaking. My thoughts are with you and so are my prayers. I know you will be together again. Hand in hand, heart to heart.

  • Jessica

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I found your blog through Tidy Mom. Thank you for the reminder to hold close the ones we love. I just finished a book that might be helpful to you, it’s called The Message…it’s amazing. Good thoughts and prayers coming your way!

  • Adrian J.S. Hale

    I have been staring at the screen now for 15 minutes wondering how I, a stranger, can convey my thoughts and emotions related to your loss. Or if it’s even my place to do so. I have been reading your blog for about a year, and I follow you on twitter. You are a part of my daily life and every time you wrote excitedly about date night, I picked up the phone and called the sitter. Your dedication to spending time with your husband was always inspiring. After having kids, it’s easy to let it slip, but you always made a point of it. Your relationship with the Mr. has always inspired me. I just discovered this post (late Friday), but I will certainly be making my family a peanut butter pie this weekend. I am so so sorry for your loss, and your family will be in my thoughts as you walk through this transition. All the best to you.

  • Shaon @ Elizabeth & Co.

    I am so sorry for your loss. Sending prayers and healing wishes to your family.

  • Shaon @ Elizabeth & Co.

    I am so sorry for your loss. Sending prayers and healing wishes to your family.

  • Jacqui

    I just saw this. My heart aches for you and the pain you must feel. I want to help in any way I can. I know we don’t know each other, but please know you have a friend in me who will keep you in my prayers. I am bummed I wasn’t able to make this pie today, though I will.
    You are strong woman. If you need anything else…don’t hesitate to email me. I am deeply sorry for your loss and heartache.

  • Francesca

    Dear Jennie – although I do not know you, I wanted to pass on my deepest sympathies to you and your girls. I too lost my father very unexpectedly – in a situation very similar to you husbands. Nothing prepares you for the shock and devastation that the loss of a loved one brings. No words ease the pain, tears to not suppress the sadness. I wish there was something I could say or do to ease the heartache you and your girls are facing. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Your husband may be gone in person but he will never leave your heart – and you will always be in his. With love.

  • karendc

    Hold on tight, you are very strong.
    He will always be with you and your family.
    My thoughts and prayers…
    Karen

  • Jenny

    A beautiful tribute to your beloved husband. My heart breaks for you as I am reminded of the fragility of life and the unfairness of it all. At 25, I suddenly lost my father just last year and I can only imagine the pain. I’ve made the pie, and it sits in my fridge waiting for the recipients to enjoy tomorrow. All of our prayers, thoughts and love go to you and your family.

  • simplybakes

    Dear Jennifer,
    Death always has a way of getting us down. Not only overcoming sadness that swallows the heart, there’s a voice that haunts us. When it’s quiet, when you are alone. When you close your eyes, and all that comes before you are the scenes of what happened. It asks:”why?” “what am i going to do now?” “What if i did better?”. I understand how you feel but what i want to say this:” Jennifer, its your bridge to cross. Its up to you to let this wound become a scar. Sure, it will hurt when you realise that all this is not a dream and that you wake up every morning in bed only to see an empty space beside you. But you are strong and i know you’ll get through this.
    I believe in you. Believe in you too, pick up the pieces and continue on. 🙂

  • linda

    just read dear bakerella’s post…sending you positive energy as you process your tremendous & devastating loss. although our paths have not crossed please know that you & your family are in my thoughts…my condolences.

  • Angelique

    I am so sorry for your loss. I will think of you, your family, and your husband in my prayers out to the world tonight
    I came across this peanut butter pie through ‘Panini Happy’, it seriously looks and sounds like the best pie, or food! in the ENTIRE WORLD!! :O
    I hope you feel a sense of ‘normal’ soon, or as much as you can. and that a sense of warmth can fill you, knowing how much of an impact you have on strangers lives, just from hearing about your story, and that you are teaching so many people, to really appreciate their loved ones, because I think it’s something, people sometimes forget about a bit, when they’re used to seeing the same person everyday.
    Sending my love

  • LCCotter

    Jennifer, I just found your blog through averies. I wanted to let you know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Bloggers are a wonderful support system and we are here for you. Time to bust out the peanut butter and make a delicious pie to share in his honor!
    LC

  • Trace

    My Dear Jennefer,
    I read this post, realizing it was written a day before my late husbands death, 7 years ago.In a time that no hope seems to remain and existing seems like only a glimmer on some days. If you ever need a ear, let me know. I will pray for your girls and for you. Let me know if Mikey gives you a “sign”—look for pennies, songs from your togetherness, feathers or birds. Something that he used to love–reminding you that he is still watching over you.Ask for his sign today and let me know. I too have had a sign from Tom.
    In fact Tom and my mom sent me my RIch.
    Love to you and your family.
    Tracey
    Please write back.

  • Quay Po Cooks

    Jennifer, I feel you because I lost my late hubby Mike 22 years ago suddenly. My son was only 2 years old. This is lovely and touching tribute to your husband and I am going to make this peanut butter pie for our Mikes! HUGS.

  • Jen

    “Then hug them like there’s no tomorrow because today is the only guarantee we can count on.” Beautifully put but so sad to hear of the occasion that brought these words. I just heard of the sad news from Rosie at Sweetapolita. Reading your post brought tears to my eyes. Praying for you and your girls.

  • Kim

    Jennie, I am so sorry for your loss. I pray you know the best guarantee we have, the love of our Father, the God of this universe, and our promise of eternal salvation by believing in His Son and giving our lives completely to Him by accepting Him as our Lord and Savior. God does not promise us an easy life, but He does promise to give us the strength to endure it, through Him. I pray your heart knows that peace beyond understanding. God bless you!

  • Charlene Cerasa Freed

    Dear Jennifer,
    I found you through Bakerella. I am so very sorry for your loss. My husband, Dave, passed suddenly 9 yrs ago from a blockage that ruptured in his LADA. I understand the pain that you are experiencing. Your tribute was wonderful. Dave loved chocolate cake with peanut butter frosting. Noone knew that and when two different friends brought them as bereavement offerings, I burst into tears. God leads us when we least know it.
    I had Dave’s wedding ring crafted into a heart with my engagement diamond in the point for my daughter to wear as a pendant. She pinned it to her bouquet when she married this past May. It was hard to see her walk down the aisle alone, but we know that Dave was watching from above. He was present in so many ways, especially in her smile. May you find peace. Please email me if you would like.

  • Krystina (Organically Me)

    Jennie, I just found your blog through Averie and I wanted to tell you that I’m sending all my thoughts, care, and love your way. I’m going to hug the loved ones close to me and tell the rest that I love them. You’re right, today is the only guarantee.

  • Lynna

    I am a longtime, mostly silent reader…I just wanted to say how sad I am for you…gentle hugs to you, then off to hug my his of 36 years…

  • Stacy

    I’m so, so sorry you are going thru this :(. I am praying for you and your family. We will make and enjoy your beautiful pie in support of your family.

  • Trina

    Hi, a friend of mine sent me this to help me. My husband passed away 3 weeks ago after a little over 9 years of marriage. I feel for you and think your tribute is beautiful. I will make the pie 🙂

  • bakingaddict

    I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. This is my first time on your blog via another link. I was wondering why I suddenly saw so many peanut butter pies on blogs as I love peanut butter and oreos. My thoughts and condolences are with you and your family.

  • Liz

    I am truly sorry for your loss. I hope you can feel the love and compassion from the food blogger community. I will keep you in my thoughts~~

  • Samantha Frost

    I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your beautiful words and feelings with us all. You certainly brought a tear to my eye but your love and sincerity warmed my heart. God bless x

  • Amanda

    Wow, all I can say is I am so sorry. 🙁 I am crying thinking of what you must be going through. My husband and I have been together for 29 years, married for 19, but not all of those years were easy. Just recently, in the last 3 months in fact, our love has been rekindled and JUST last night we went on a “date”. something we haven’t done in ages. I couldn’t even imagine experiencing this and if I could hug you I would. God, I’m so sorry. I wish I would have seen this earlier, I would have baked a pie too. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

  • Diane M

    Dear Jennifer,
    My heart aches for your lovely family. I will be happy to make a pie to honor your beloved husband. May God give you strength and courage every day. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other..step by step, you will get through this….with the grace of God.
    Diane M. Placentia,Ca

  • Kelly Jeffreys

    Jennie, I’m new to your blog. I couldn’t understand why foodgawker and tastespotting were suddenly overtaken by peanut butter pies. I knew there had to be a story, so I followed the clues. And such a sad sad heartbreaking story I found at the end of it. Some people light candles in memory of loved ones, but you have the world making peanut butter pie…and there’s something amazing about that. I hope it heals your heart in some small way. For my part, I can tell you that tomorrow afternoon, there will be one more peanut butter pie made in memory of your husband.

  • michelle k

    What a perfect and poignant tribute. I will make this tonight and share this story with my husband. Thanks for a new perspective. Just know, you WILL see him again.

  • shawn

    Jennifer, I totally understand what you are going through. I just lost my dad at age 67. It was sudden. Cause of death still unknown. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this time of need. I too believe that I will be with my dad again. I know I’m a stranger but should you ever need to talk feel free to call. My dads obituary is on my blog at classiccreationsbyshawn.blogspot.com, if you care to read. God Bless!!!!! Shawn

  • Kim in MD

    I stumbled upon your blog today through Miss In The Kitchen’s blog. She wrote about making your peanut butter pie yesterday in honor of your husband. I am so sorry for your loss. The video was beautiful, and your husband was obviously a wonderful father. I don’t know how you were able to write such a beautiful post, given your excrutiating grief, but I thank you for reminding me to hug my husband and children like there is no tomorrow. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your young family.

  • Rachel at Eat and Write

    I can’t imagine being in your position right now, and I’m sorry you’re going through this. I’m keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, and hoping that your family draws together closely and supports each other in this difficult time.

  • Margaret

    My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family. I am so so sorry for your loss. Remember the good times to get you through.

  • claudia @whats cookin italian cuisine

    I am deeply sorry for your loss, as words cant describe the sick feeling of losing someone thats so much a part of you. I have reposted with tearful eyes in his honor and yours. MY deepest sympathy to you and your children.. a foodie friend Claudia @What’s Cookin’ Italian Cuisine

  • Meghan

    You are a strong woman Jennifer! I’ve followed your blog a long time & my heart is breaking for you and your family. You have tons of friends out there from this blog & please know we are all here for you! Prayers are with you.

  • Pam Morris

    I just happened to come across the story of the peanut butter pie for Mikey on CNN.com. I am so sorry for your heartbreaking loss. Tomorrow night I am taking dinner to a friend who is fighting for her life against cancer. I am going to make your peanut butter pie for dessert in honor of your family. God bless.
    Pam

  • loni

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for reminding me that life is fragile & we shouldn’t take for granted the time we have with our loved ones. Forget the dishes aren’t done, the kids spilled juice on the floor. Remember what truly matters are the moments we choose to make a memory. I pray for you & your family to have endurance and strength to get through this difficult time. My husband loves peanut butter anything :o) , I will think of your family when I make this Friday & share your touching story.

  • Carol

    My very deepest sympathy to you. I’ve never made a peanut butter pie but will do so in honor of the love you and your husband shared. Take care; I do believe you will see him again in heaven.

  • Stacy

    In reading How Sweat It Is this morning, I was taken here for the Peanut Butter Pie recipe. I had no idea what I was about to read. Like so many others, my heart is breaking and I want to write some magical words that will comfort you and drive away your pain. We are having a family dinner tomorrow and, although it’s not Friday, I will serve this pie and hug my family so tight YOU will feel our love.

  • Pattie C.

    Jennifer our thoughts and prayers in Oregon go out to you and yours. I will make this pie for Your Mikey on Friday … By the way this is my guy’s favorite pie … Thank you for sharing yours with the world .. <3 <3 <3
    Best Regards & God Bless
    Pattie C.

  • Carolyn

    Stories of love and food are always the best! Your story was said with such grace, my thoughts and prayers are with you. My family loves peanut butter pie so today, Saturday (a day late) I will make the Mikey peanut butter pie.

  • Barb Bamber

    I am new to blogging and just discovered your blog this morning… I am so saddened to read your news and wanted to tell you that you and your family are in my prayers.

  • Jann Jones

    I can feel your pain, I lost my partner super bowl sunday of ’10, to massive heart attack… I will light a candle for you and your orecious ones, and pray for you all.. Blessings to you…

  • Penny

    My prayers are with you and your family. May your memories help ease the pain until you meet again. And though I don’t know you, Creamy Peanut Butter Pie will forever forward bring your DH to my mind. ((hugs))

  • Shawna

    Jennie, I’m so sorry to read about your loss. Thank you for your beautiful, eloquent words and the reminder to cherish people. My thoughts and prayers and tears are with you.

  • Wendy Willey

    Hi Jennie,
    I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you can find comfort in all your well wishers kind words. You see, I to have been where you are…To so many people it is hard to explain, but I can tell by your words that you know exactly what I went through, as I know what you are and will be going through. “To lose your husband, best friend, lover, father to your children, provider to your life and livelihood, promised forever soul mate, secret keeper and joined at the hip partner.” Your friends and family do their best to help you through this, but the one person who really could is gone! There are no words that can compare the pain. So we just try to smile and nod and move on. It’s been 13 years (this month) for me, and I wipe my tears as I type this to you. May God wrap you in his heavenly arms and console you to his breast. Prayers and Hugs to you Jennie.
    P.S. my Bob liked Peanut Butter Pie to!

  • Laurie Schneider

    I’m not sure what to say; you don’t know me. I just recently found your wonderful blog and have been pouring through all your old posts and anticipating so many wonderful meals for my family. And now I sit here wishing that I could do something to support you through this devastating loss. Please know that my thoughts are with you and your girls. May all of these beautiful expressions of love for you and your family help you through when you need it the most. We will be making this pie tonight for dessert and, as a family, we will share our thoughts of love with one another.

  • Stephanie

    Sending love and strength to you and your family. The loss of your husband has touched and grown people closer together all across the world. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

  • Bobbie

    I just read your story and cried the entire way; my husband also works insane hours. We always plan to go hiking, but work gets in the way. I know you don’t know me, but my heart and prayers are with you. I promise to bake your husband a peanut butter pie today, because I hadn’t the knowledge yesterday.
    Bobbie

  • js

    im so sad and so angry. i lost my first husband after 10 months of marriage our daughter was 10 months. i kind of went through life thinking i paid my dues (foolishly)until last year when my daughter lost her husband after 6 days of marriage. i foolishly thought i paid my dues. i mad and angry that our dues are never paid. im sorry for the loss of your beloved im sorry for the loss of your dad too.
    im so grateful that we will see them again because of jesus paying our heavenly dues but sometimes i just want to acknowledge how much earth can suck.

  • Nightingale Oao

    I was wondering why I was seeing so many PB Pie desserts. It wasn’t until I saw the video ‘Peanut Butter Pie for Mikey’ today and read your story that I realized what was going on. I’m so sorry for your loss. May you find strength in knowing that there are so many who are thinking of your family. I know I’m a bit late, but will make your recipe this coming Friday and share it with my friends and family. Thank you for reminding us to be grateful for today as we never know if there will be a tomorrow. <3

  • Michelle Torres

    Jennifer,
    Even though you do not know me at all, I wanted to let you know that you and your family are in my prayers, and that my heart is with you…. You are not alone and I wish I could give you a big hug…. Keep the faith that oneday you will be with Mikey again, until then God has you and your sweet girls in his hands! Sending many prayers and love from North Carolina!!!!!!
    Michelle Torres
    decorater4life@aol.com

  • Alana

    I have tears in my eyes for you and your girls and my heart aches for all of us who love deeply and lose too soon (although I think it’s always too soon). Wishing you the strength of love & community, and many hands to hold yours as you learn to live this new, unwanted life. May your daughters always know how much their daddy loved them.

  • danica

    i will make a peanut butter pie this week to honor your dear husband. love and prayers coming your way. danica

  • Pure2raw twins

    We are so sorry for your lost!! We are thinking of you during this difficult time. We will make sure to hug and say I love you to all our family and friends today!

  • Rosa Bowling

    Though I have never met you, I do know the sorrow of the loss of a loved one. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family and I pray you will be strengthened through this difficult time. Thank you for the reminder of just how precious life is. We often take for granted the gifts we have been given, it is good for all of us to remember to live each day in a spirit of thankfulness.

  • Tiffany Douglas

    I lost my mom on 3/10/2011 she and my dad had been married 31 yrs, married when she was 16 and he was 18. My heart is broken for you because I see what my dad is going thru and I too feel the loss, she was my mother for 30yrs of my life, I feel so much sadness for you yet I found this article comforting as well, it reminded me that I’m not the only one who lost my mom…I sometimes forget my dad’s pain…I wish I knew you in real life because as I struggle for the loss for my mom I’ve reached out to so many only to get lost in a sea of no ones understanding when i speak of her everyone gets upset, what i wouldn’t give to be able to talk freely about her like i am now….I pray that your life togethor was wonderful and rather it was long or short that you appreciated every single moment of it and will carry on his memory forever in your heart and the hearts of those who loved him as you do.

  • Heather

    I am so sorry. I’ve found you through Heather at Beauty that Moves. Definitely a peanut butter pie will be made this week with your dear family in our thoughts and prayers. Heather

  • Deborah

    Jennifer – I have resourced your blog for recipes and inspiration, and now as I read with tears in my eyes I would like to express my sorrow for you and your family. This is life at it’s hardest, and I wish you lots of strength in the days ahead. Thank you for sharing recipes you love with us, and now, I hope, you can find some comfort in the love people have for you.

  • Dana

    what a terrible loss and yet what a gift you’ve given through this post. i thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking the time to remind us all how much we have to cherish and how little we think to do so. sending you healing thoughts and i wish you all the best xx

  • Adrienne D.

    I can’t say how sorry I am…
    I made this (delicious) peanut butter pie last night, and we all sat down together this afternoon to dig in. My husband’s birthday is in a few days – and peanut butter & chocolate is his *favorite* combination – so we celebrated a bit early in honor of Mikey. Thank you for sharing this with us.
    Keeping you and your daughters in my thoughts. Wishing you peace and strength to endure.

  • Roxana GreenGirl

    Hi Jennie,
    I have never visited your site before and I just found out about your loss. I can only imagine what you’re going through.
    I’m going to keep you and your family in my prayers and even if I haven’t made a pie yesterday I made one early and going to share it with my family, friends and neighbors.
    Stay strong

  • Robin

    Jennie –
    Adding my prayers during this time. May God Bless you and yours as you grieve and remember the joy. I took a little liberty – my son has been asking for pumpkin pie for weeks and I’ve been putting him off. I thought in the spirit of doing for your loved ones while you can, I’d bake pumpkin instead of peanut butter.

  • Lindsey @ Why Just Eat

    I cannot begin to imagine the magnitude of your loss. My heart breaks for you and your young daughters!! There is a beautiful tribute to your husband on TasteSpotting – how wonderful to know that the love you have for your husband is being shared across the food blogging world today!

  • Sandie

    I heard about you and your loss from Bakerella’s site. I came over because I want to tell you that I’m so very sorry for your loss. I know what you’re going thru because I also lost my husband/best friend/other half of myself 5 yrs ago. It was not a sudden as your loss but 2 wks after he was diagnosed with Leukemia. I don’t want to tell you it will get better. It doesn’t. BUT you learn to live with out him. It’s the only thing you can do. Take each day as it comes, ups and downs. My prayers are with you and your family.

  • Anna

    Dear Jennie
    I’ve just come across your blog.
    I don’t know you at all but after reading this post and watching the last video I can’t stop crying.Can’t express how how sorry I’m to hear about your loss.
    I can’t cook so can’t make the tart but I’ll pray for you and your loved ones.May He give you all the love and suport you need now.
    warm hugs
    anna

  • gloria

    Dear jeannie Im so sorryfor your loss, what can I say? but in this blogger world sometimes we are really next each other, I send you my love and prayers! Huggs gloria

  • Madeleine

    Dear Jennie,
    We don’t know each other, but I stumbled across your story today and it broke my heart. I wish you and your daughters strength and peace during this difficult time, I can’t even imagine your sorrow. I’m so sorry for your loss. I made peanut butter pie today in memory of your husband to share with my family. I hope that you are able to find comfort in the outpouring of love from strangers.
    Madeleine

  • Cathey

    I’m so sorry for your loss. But never forget that your husband will never again suffer pain or sadness, as he is safe and happy in Heaven!
    I’ll be praying for you and your family. My pie is made is his honor!

  • carla

    Im part of the motherboard but a more silent member. Ive read everyones posts and finally have read yours.
    Im praying for you.
    so many are.
    you are loved.

  • Susan

    I an so sorry for your loss. I made this pie with my 12 year of daughter, and many thoughts of you and your family. The pie is fantastically delicious and it will be part of our family repertoire too.

  • Beverly Brown

    There are no words. I am making three of these pies this weekend: one for my family, and one each for two neighbors who lost their husbands suddenly in car crashes last year.

  • Jen

    I learned about your story through Cannelle et Vanille. We are sharing a peanut butter bar in Mikey’s memory and thinking deeply on the fleetingness of life, taking a moment to enjoy its delicious times. Our deepest condolences to you and your family.

  • Jennifer Spencer

    My husband helped me make this pie in our living room, since I’m on bed rest with our first kid. He burned the chocolate, shattered a pre-made pie crust, and I got powdered sugar on the couch and peanut butter in my hair. We laughed and loved our way through it, and I know we’ll continue making this recipe together through the years. You don’t know us, but we’re thinking of you and your girls and of Mikey, and are heartbroken for all of you.

  • Anne

    Jennie….I am so truly sorry for your loss and I’m sending you warm thoughts and prayers that you and your family will find peace.

  • Ina Mohd

    I saw a couple of food blogs with a pie for Mikey. I hope he’s looking down and smiling at all the love in his Honor. My heart goes out to you and your family.

  • Carolyn

    I also am new to your blog, but I was brought here by all the posts on fellow bloggers’ sites. I hope it’s a comfort to you in this devastating time that so many people are thinking of you and writing tributes to your husband. Your poignant post brought tears to my eyes and you and your husband will be in my thoughts.

  • Susan

    Dear Jennifer,
    I am so sorry for your loss. I can’t even imagine what you are going through. Just know that people like me who don’t even know you are praying for you and your family. I have printed out the recipe and am going to the store right now to get the ingredients. I will make it with love and think of your dear Mikey as I watch my family enjoy it. I wish that I could make this pie and bring it over for YOU, but alas, I can not. Thank you for your post and how many lives it touched. May God bless you and your girls.

  • Anna (Morsels & Musings)

    i am one of many people from all over the world (sydney, australia) wishing you all the strength you need to continue on, in the best way you know how, so you can honour the man you love.
    this pie is a wonderful start.

  • Ashley G

    So sorry for your loss, and to have found your blog this way.
    However, I made the pie last night, and hugged my husband long and hard after telling him the story behind the surprise pie.
    It’s delicious. And I think Mikey would have enjoyed it as much as we are enjoying it together.

  • Ana

    You don’t know me but my heart is breaking for you. I have no words because I do know what you are going through. Just know that there is a million hugs in my heart my prayers are with you…

  • Pat

    May God hold you and your family in His hands always… This is going in my recipe file as
    “Mikey’s Peanut Butter cream Pie”… I think it’s time I made my husbands strawberry cake that I have been putting off til later……

  • Heather | Farmgirl Gourmet

    My good thoughts are with you Jennifer. I can’t imagine what you’re going through, but whether you believe in God or whatever, know that there are a lot of people in the blogosphere that are sending up prayers, good thoughts and wishing for the very best for you. When you do see Mikey again someday, make sure you bring the ring with you! 🙂
    xoxo
    Heather

  • Carol Robinson

    Jennifer, I just came upon your site via another cooking blog. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry about your husband. I watched the video, “one more dance”. It was wonderful. My heart hurts for you. I lost my youngest daughter four years ago. Although it isn’t quite the same, it still hurts. It made me look at my husband again and appreciate him even more. God bless you. I love your site.

  • Debi

    You’ve touched our hearts greatly. We are praying for comfort and healing as your heart is beyond hurt. There are no words or wisdom to say…Just know that others are thinking and praying for you and your family.
    My Boys and I made a Brownie Peanut Butter Pie today..in the memory of a Daddy and a husband that was taken away too soon.
    From My Boys and I…<3 and Hugs!

  • Rachel

    Thinking of you. Tomorrow was cheesecake baking day but we’re changing the menu in honor of Mickey. Wishing we could do more.

  • Sonja

    Dear Jennifer,
    Another of those “you don’t know me” posts here…and yet I cannot help but chime in. I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss and cannot even imagine how huge a hole it must have left in the lives of you and your families.
    I will make this pie just as soon as my husband gets through his gallbladder surgery. In memory of your Mikey and with hopes a-plenty that you, your heart, and your family will find a way to be happy and at peace once more.
    Thank you for sharing such an intimate moment with your readers.
    Best wishes, always,
    Sonja

  • Julie

    I am very sorry for your loss. I made a pb pie today. I didn’t get a chance yesterday due to work. Sending prayers your way.

  • Anna (Morsels & Musings)

    i am one of many people from all over the world (sydney, australia) wishing you all the strength you need to continue on, in the best way you know how, so you can honour the man you love.
    this pie is a wonderful start.

  • Anna (Morsels & Musings)

    i am one of many people from all over the world (sydney, australia) wishing you all the strength you need to continue on, in the best way you know how, so you can honour the man you love.
    this pie is a wonderful start.

  • Marian (Sweetopia)

    Dear Jennie,
    You don’t know me, but I have followed your story and at first, didn’t know if I should say something because we don’t know each other, but now, if it helps you at all, I have to say, that I am so, so, sorry you and your family lost Mikey. I can not imagine how painful this must be. I feel, too, that this is not your last with him. You will be with him after this life; the beauty here on earth tells me this can not be the end.
    Thank you for giving me the gift of the reminder how precious life is – and can change in one moment.
    I know I hugged my husband a little tighter, told him of your story, and shared the one last dance video with him. We were both so moved.
    I wish you peace and love in this very difficult time, and please know and find comfort in knowing that sooo many people are sending you prayers and light, including me.
    xoxo

  • Sasha

    Much love to you and your family. You are a wise and brave woman. I made a peanut butter ice cream pie for my husband and our friends tonight… we lost touch with our friends over time but when I read your post I was inspired to reach out to them and invite them over for dessert and to get caught up. It was a wonderful visit. I should have called them earlier. Thank you for reminding me what is important and right in this world, the people that you love.
    {hugs} and a splashy tear on the keyboard.

  • Jeanne @JollyTomato

    Dear Jennie:
    I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I want you to know that even though you don’t know me, your story inspired me to make a pie for Mikey this weekend while my relatives were visiting. It turned into an incredible family project – even the kids got involved crushing the cookies for the crust – and it definitely brought us all together. I hope that in some small way it helps you to know that people all across the country are thinking of you and wishing you strength and peace during this difficult time.
    My very best to you,
    Jeanne

  • Sandra Frascona

    Never visited your blog before or had the privilege of knowing your Mikey…but just know that as my boys take their first bite of Mikey’s Pie this week, they’ll hear exactly why it’s on our table. <3

  • Mirakol S.

    Hello,
    My name is Mirakol and I’m actually a new follower of your blog (found out via BGSK). I would just like to send my sincerest condolences and many prayers to you and your family in this time of bereavement. I pray that God grants peace and solace. Be blessed and keep your head up. Much love to you and your family!
    Matthew 5:4 “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.”
    Psalm 34:18 “The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”

  • Kathy

    Although I do not know what you’re going through (because I haven’t been through something like this), I know that this is something very painful. I hope, that in time, your heart will heal and memories of Mikey will be sealed in your heart forever.
    One thing though, is to not obsess over something like this because it will ruin you eventually. I learned that by watching a very inspirational show. 🙂 I do hope, however, that wherever Mikey is now, he’s happy and is looking at you and your girls with a big smile. You don’t know how sad I think this is, really. -Kathy

  • Karen

    It’s midnight and I just finished making the peanut butter pie. I will savor it with my extended family tomorrow more than any other dessert I have ever made, in gratitude for my husband and family, and with heartbreak for you and yours.

  • Crystal

    Jennifer,
    I have not visited here before. I wonder how I missed this lovely nook of the web. I saw on Twitter the tribute for your husband Mikey. Your love, the love you shared touches us all. Be strong in the coming days and be kind to yourself.

  • Katie Dale

    Dear Jennie,
    I found your blog today when I checked TasteSpotting and saw the flood of Peanut Butter Pie posts. I am so terribly sorry for your loss. While I have not personally lost anyone close to me, I can only imagine the grief you and your family are suffering. I hope that through this dark time you will see the light at the end of the tunnel very soon.
    Sending prayers from Singapore, Katie

  • Christine

    Jennie, so so sad to hear about you and your daughters’ loss.. Cannot imagine what you must be going through right now…God bless your family. xoxo

  • Mark Maynard-Parisi

    Jennifer,
    On behalf of your Blue Smoke family, we send you heartfelt condolences. We are so sorry for your loss. In honor of Mikey (and you), we will be featuring Mikey’s pie in the restaurant starting Tuesday. Please let us know if we can send you a pie to share with your friends and family. We are here for you.
    Warmly,
    Mark Maynard-Parisi and Jenn Giblin

  • Lilly

    I’ve found your blog through Foodiva and I feel your pain after reading your post. Life sometimes isn’t fair at all. I know there I nothing that can make you feel better, but I hope you’ll find the strength and courage to move on. Lots of hugs from Holland.

  • Snippets of Thyme

    Have you seen all of the incredible pages of peanut butter pies on Tastespotting? I hope when you are able to take a look, you will feel wrapped in the warmth and support of so many people who have heard your tragic story and want to send you bits of strength. Wishing for you strength and courage to wake up each day and move one small step after another as you cope with such a horrible loss.

  • anne riccioli paraskevas

    I am so sorry about your hubby…. please accept my heartfelt condoleances… you are in my prayers, huggs, anne

  • Amie

    There aren’t words to say how sorry I am for your loss. I lost my step-father under similar circumstances at a young age too. It’s just…hard to grasp. I will make a pie in Mikey’s honor.

  • KimberlyH

    Dear Jennie,
    I am so sorry for your loss. Bizzarely enough, my cousin’s husband just passed away from a sudden heart attack last week as well. She is now going through the difficult time of figuring out a new normal and keeping things as normal as possible for their kids as well. If you think it might be helpful to be in contact with someone going through exactly what you are, let me know and I can put you two in touch.

  • Deanna (Silly Goose Farm)

    Oh my dear. I don’t know you and just found your blog, but my heart absolutely breaks for you. I can’t even imagine such a loss. I am going to make this pie right away and give it to someone I love in rememberance of your husband. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

  • Deborah

    Jennie, you have inspired me. My daughter-in-law was recently in a paragliding accident and has broken her pelvis in several places. I flew from PA to CA to take care of her and my son, and after 3 surgeries, I’m thankful she’s on the road to recovery. Her favorite food is anything that includes chocolate and peanut butter! Even though I’ve been insanely devoted to cooking super healthy foods for her, before I leave this week I’m excited to bake this luscious peanut butter pie in honor of you and your sweet husband, and of her and my son. Thank you, and may you find comfort and strength in God, family, and friends.

  • gloria

    yesterday I let a message dear Jennie, but I dont know what happens, dear Im sorry by your loss and my prayers are with you and the kids. xgloria

  • Katie Hill

    My heart breaks for you. My girls and I made the pie today and will be sharing it with friends. We will remember to hold each other a little bit longer and much tighter. Many thoughts and prayers for you and your family.

  • VettyV

    I am so sorry for your loss..I cannot even imagine the loss you must feel..this is a very eloquent and touching post and a great tribute…my thoughts and prayers are with you and yours in this difficult time

  • Patricia

    Love and healing thoughts to you and your girls…I just read your blog, even tho I missed Friday, a Peanut Butter Cream Pie will be created for Mikey, blessings to you.

  • Sarah

    I am so sorry for your loss – although those words can be used so often for people that I don’t think it conveys how sorry I really am. I found your blog through Brown Eyed Baker when she posted the creamy pb pie for Mikey. Praying for you and your children.

  • Magda

    Jennifer, I’m really sorry for your loss.
    My father died suddenly of a heart attack 6 months ago and it was devastating. I can’t even imagine how you and your girls must be feeling right now.
    I wish I could write you something comforting but I know that nothing can make you feel better right now. Just know that there are a lot of people thinking about you and wish the best for you and your children. I am one of those people.
    Have strength and courage, dear Jennifer, and take good care.
    Magda

  • Kristy

    Jennie – I’ve never been to your blog before, but read your story on two blogs that I do read. They posted Peanut Butter Pie. I just wanted to say that I’m sorry for your loss. The food blogging world is really a small community and I wanted to make sure you knew that you and your kids will be in my thoughts. Your post is very touching. You have my sincerest condolences.

  • Tammy

    Came upon the beautiful tributes to your husband Mikey. I don’t know you, nor do you know me- but through your touching words I feel your amazing love for your husband. May that sustain through this horrible time and may you feel all the collective hugs. God bless you and your girls. with love, Tammy

  • Krista

    I am so sorry for your loss. It breaks my heart…there really are no words. I didn’t hear until after Friday, but I promise to make Mikey’s pie.
    Sending love, hugs and prayers to your family.

  • Anna

    My heartfelt condolences go out for you. I made the pie for my family and they loved it…and I love them. Thank you for sharing this with us and I wish you all the strength to keep on going…

  • Tori @ The Shiksa in the Kitchen

    Jennifer, thank you for the lovely recipe, what a beautiful tribute to your husband’s life. I made it with my family Friday night for Shabbat. Mikey’s memory is alive in our house, and we are all praying for you and your children.

  • Courtney Vermette

    I can’t imagine your pain. I lost my mother 6 years ago when I was 16 to cancer, and it still stings now as much as it did then. Time doesn’t make things easier to feel, only to talk about. I hope you find love again and that they honor your husbands memory. I don’t know you or your family, and we will never meet, but I hope that you find peace in all the chaos. I can understand the loss of a loved one, but not of the one you love. I know the words of a 22 year old girl may pale in comparison to those that have more years, but i really do hope you and your girls find happiness. You deserve it.

  • Zoethebrave

    I stumbled upon this via Kim Severson’s tweet about the Write on Rice Couple’s video. Having lost my father to a heart attack when he was 46, and I wasn’t even that close to him, I know the kind of pain that life has brought you and your family right now. The only words I can pass along are to be patient with yourself. Time will heal the extreme pain.
    This news also made me send a note to my ex. We’re in the middle of the ugly stage of a break-up. Despite that, she’s the first person I wanted to hug when reading your blog post. Life is to short for ugliness.

  • Lina

    Just found your blog from How Sweet Eats and you’re entries brought me to tears. What a wonderful way to pay tribute to your husband, I am so sorry for your loss.

  • Katie

    I made your pie this weekend…lifting you and your girls up in prayer as I did so. Thank you for being so courageous to write during your time of loss and remind us all to hold life precious and count each minute dear with the ones we love. We will think of you as we eat it tonight and throughout this time…thoughts and prayers with you and your family.

  • Linda T.

    Jennie,
    I am so sorry for your loss. This is a beautiful tribute to your husband and your bond. I’ll make this pie this week, and tell my family that this is Mikey’s pie, and the reason it is so special.

  • katie

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I don’t know you but reading your post- my heart goes out to you and your family. May God be with you at this time.

  • sheryl

    So sorry for your loss. Prayers for you and your family. It’s Sunday evening and I am at my brother & sister in laws house for dinner. My brother commented that we all had to save room for the great dessert he made..Peanut Butter Pie! He then shared your story. I just had to write and let you know that a family in Zeeland,MI. Read you story,share your loss and we’re having your Husbands favorite dessert tonight!
    God Bless you and your family.

  • Heidi

    Jennifer,
    My heart breaks for you and your family. In your honor, I made Mikey’s pie for my loved ones, and I will tell them your story.

  • Football_swan

    I found this via Bakerella. My heart to you and yours as you find your “new normal.” Since I missed Friday’s opportunity, I think I’ll make pie for my birthday next month, for Mikey.

  • Mike

    Jennie, I’m very sorry for your loss. The good one’s leave us far too soon. I wanted to let you know that I (I’m Mike too) made this pie with my son and daughter on Saturday. We shopped for the ingreedients together and then made the pie. It was delicious. We dedicated it to your Mike and daughters. God bless and be with you!
    Mike

  • kathleen erbe

    I am so sorry for your loss. My daughter’s father just passed away a little over two years ago, and it still cuts deep, and always will. He was 48 yrs. old, she was 14. Aspen will be graduating this coming year, with honors, and will going onto a college where she can reach the stars. I am so proud of Aspen, we were not married, but the loss of a parent was not one I was ready for.
    Being that time has passed so quickly, we slow down and love and laugh at all his antics, and their love that was so special for each other.
    Our heartfelt prayers are with you for all time, blessings of healing, and peace within, kerbe

  • Tatiyana

    Jennie, I don’t know you, and this is the first time I have read your blog. I’m so sorry to hear about what you’re going through, and while I wasn’t able to make this pie over the weekend, I will make it. In memory of your wonderful husband and to, in some way, help you heal. You and your beautiful family are in my thoughts and prayers.

  • Sherri J

    Jennie I just wanted to offer up my deepest condolences. You are much beloved and supported as I have seen via blogs I follow and Twitter. I hope you feel all of that enveloping you now. You are a part of my and many others prayers and I wish for you peace. My heart breaks for you and I want to thank-you for selflessly making sure the rest of us tell the ones we love how much we love them. I shared your story over dinner with my husband on Friday night and told him what you had written. It was lovely and heartbreaking. You are a very strong women. Be well and hold those girls close to you.

  • Samantha Kirk

    I saw this blog shared through the “Chocolate for Breakfast” Facebook page. I thought the pie sounded wonderful, but I also thought it would be wonderful to share it with my family as you asked in your blog in honor of your husband Mikey. Your message made me realize that we should not take our time on this earth for granted nor should we take the ones we love for granted. I thank you for sharing your story and I hope you find strength in knowing that you have touched people’s lives. I know it’s not Friday, but tomorrow I will share a creamy peanut butter pie with my family that I made tonight and we will enjoy it together in honor of Mikey.

  • Emma

    I found your blog through tastespotting and all the lovely photos of pies and desserts on there for your hubbie.
    I am thinking of you and your family and am so sorry for your loss.

  • Miriam Morris

    Jennie,
    I made your pie for my husband’s birthday tonight. We lost his mom a few years ago very suddenly, much like your own loss.
    My thought are with you and your family. I gave my son an extra squeeze before bed.
    Thank you for opening your heart with us. You are very brave.

  • Eryn

    This is a beautiful post, full of beautiful sentiment.
    I will be making Mikey’s peanut butter cream pie this week. Thank you.

  • Allie

    I am with you in grief–my Mom suddenly died on Thursday. I found this blog through Tarlette’s blog and as I can’t sleep–I am taking comfort in reading shared expressions of love and food. Yesterday I decided to include my Mom’s recipe for Texas sheet cake in her memorial service bulletin because you told me about peanut butter pie. Thank you for having strength to share during your time of grief. Accept my warm love from California… Peace.

  • WINNIEPOLEY@HOTMAIL.COM

    I am so sorry for your loss. I was widowed at 40 and recall the sadness as if it were yesterday (5 years ago). But more than anything I recall the great love we shared and the blessing of having “our” life together. I will make this pie on the weekend as a tribute to your great love. Take care….

  • Brenda Murphy

    I have just opened my e-mail from Browneyed Baker and read your story of love for Mikey, I have been married 33 years and can not imagine living without my husband Rod, I will be making the pie and taking it to work to share with my other family as Rod is diabetic. Know that I am praying for you and the girls and believe that you will receive strength to continue bringing them up as you and Mikey planned.
    God Bless you from Knysna South Africa

  • Liz

    Jennie–this is the first I’ve ever read your blog. I found you through Simple Bites.
    Your family is in my thoughts. I haven’t made your pie yet, but will be soon for my husband. We’re taking our first date in months this week and I will be squeezing his hand a little harder.

  • Vanessa

    Jenny, As I read your post, my eyes filled… I could hear your words in the back of my head as if happening to me. This Friday I’ll make PBPie for my David, and while making it I’ll be sending you and your girls positive thoughts and the strength you may need. Warm Hugs

  • Colleen

    Dear Jennifer,
    I made your peanut butter cream pie on Friday and shared it with family and friends, and told them why. My heart goes out to you and your girls and your Mikey. You are supported by so many, known and unknown. Deep thanks for sharing even this with us.
    Colleen

  • Chicgorgeous.blogspot.com

    Hi Jennie! I believe I’m late and just came from Ann’s website (Cooking Healthy For Me) after reading about your loss. However, I like to tell you how terribly sorry I am to read about this and my prayers and condolences goes out to you and your family. Will certainly bookmark this recipe, and will listen to your advise to show love and gratitude to our love ones as we cannot predict what will happen next. Lots of hugs, and take care.. a new stranger and hopefully a foodie blogger friend. Regards, Joanna from Chic & Gorgeous Treats

  • kristin @ contented me

    Jennifer – you don’t even know me, nor I you, but I linked through to your blog from Not Without Salt, and I just wanted to say that my heart is breaking for you and your family. I hope you can find the strength and courage to move on. I will absolutely make a peanut butter pie to share with my family in your honor. May God be with you.
    Kristin

  • Adam

    I made this pie this weekend. I used light cream cheese which made it more difficult for the pie to set… plus lets face it, didnt save that many calories considering the amplitude of the pie. Still taste wise delicious! Anyways it was a big hit and we all discussed the food blog/Mikey/pie situation. It really was a nice evening. I think this pie serves 16 (and even then its def not light).

  • Diane

    I just wanted to say that I only heard of you when this sad news was blogged the other day. Since then you have been in my thoughts..
    I send your family many blessings in this hard time.
    I know Mikey is now your Angel and watching over you and your girls.

  • At Home with Rebecka

    Jeannie, You’re peanut butter pie is a wonderful tribute to the memory of your husband! I will be making this this Friday night to share with the one’s I love…you are in my thoughts and prayers!

  • TOni

    Just wanted to send condolences and let you know my girls
    And I made a pie this weekend, and our family shared it in your husband’s honor. May peace and healing grace your family.

  • Joan Gilchrist

    Jennifer only read your personal sad family news through Kristin’s Lovefeast Facebook message. Kristin is my son-in-law, Aaron’s sister. I live in England but picked up your story while on holiday in France. So sending Huge Hugs and all my love across the miles and will think of you and treasure your recipe forever xx

  • Erika

    I am so sorry for your loss. I can’t even find the words or even begin to imagine how you feel. You and your girls are our thoughts and prayers. I made your pie with my family yesterday and we shared your recipe on our blog today.
    ~Thats IT Mommy-Erika

  • Teri Dixon

    My prayers go out to you and your family. May you know that you will be together one day, until then keep his memories close and his love in your heart. I will make a pie this Friday in his memory.

  • Linda

    Big hugs to you and your girls. The internet is a funny place where we might never meet and I still feel heart-close to you. My heart is breaking and swelling at the same time – how wonderful for you to have had Mikey’s love and support and how hard it is that you can’t hold him anymore. But his love is twined into you, bones, blood and soul, and will always be there for you and your girls. I hope that you know how much you – and he – have touched so many lives. We’re all sending that loving energy back to you now when you need it most.

  • Pathsunfolding

    I have neglected my Twitter account for several months. I come back and do some catching up and see this news. I follow your twitter feed quietly, I don’t think we have ever interacted. Nevertheless, this news gave me pause today. This stranger sends you love and support from Oregon. I will go forth and love a little more. And possibly make a peanut butter cream pie.

  • Kimberlee

    Just made this pie this weekend for my little family.. honestly, one of the best desserts I’ve ever had!

  • Ivette

    Hi my condolences in your deepest lost, but im impressed about the lovely and sweet history about the Mikeys favorite pie, really makes me cry of emotion,a love like this fill my heart of joy and hope,about love and commitment in the deepest pureness, im thankfull to you to show me this beautifull lesson, Your a great woman. Im sorry I read about this today ( monday) but in honor of mikey im gonna make my pie next friday. I make a post about your wonderfull story in my blog, Is in spanish because is my native language, but heres the link anyways, God bless you: http://tusdulcesideas.blogspot.com/2011/08/un-pie-para-mikey.html

  • Colette

    Dear Jennifer,
    I came across your blog through a couple of other baking blog subscriptions. I will make the pie this Friday and hope your good friends, loved ones and online fans bring comfort to you and your daughters during this difficult time. May this be your last sadness.
    Colette

  • SamCyn

    So sorry for your loss. I can only imagine your pain. However, keep in mind that God will see you through it. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  • Farrah's Kitchen

    I am so sorry for your families loss and I cannot even fathom a day w/o my husband. I found your blog through various websites and just want to send my condolences. I would’ve totally made a banana pie on Friday if I had only known. Sending you hugs from Rhode Island!

  • Deborahrosereeves.wordpress.com

    Dear Jennie,
    You don’t know me but I heard about your tragic loss through a friend this weekend who follows you on Food 52. We went to see the full moon rise and have a picnic on Saturday night and Sarah brought a peanut butter pie and told us your story. We hugged each other and said how much we loved each other. That the pie was one of the most delicious things I’ve ever eaten is incidental. The main thing is I was moved and saddened to hear of the loss of your husband, I’m so very sorry.
    Sincerely, Deborah.

  • Kathy @HowToDecorateACake

    Dearest Jennie…
    Please, please, accept my most sincere and heartfelt condolences during your time of loss.
    The fact that you can write about this with such courage and feeling has me crying – you are so strong to be able to do this.
    You are so right – there may be no tomorrow.
    Please know that I’m going to bake for my husband – and throw my arms around him when he gets home tonight. After I offer prayers of comfort and love up for you and your children, and all your family.
    God bless…
    Kathy

  • The Farmers Wife

    Jennie, I am new to your site here but I just wanted to say that I am SO very, deeply sorry for your loss. I know there is nothing we can do or say to ease the pain, but it’s so touching to see how this wonderful food blogging community has rallied around you. I feel so blessed to be a part of that. God Bless you and your family.

  • Sarah-Jane

    I am so sorry to hear of your tragic loss.
    Words can offer such little comfort during such an awful time. Sending love and thoughts for you and your children. x

  • Sarah Younker

    I am not sure if I am late with this or not, but I will be making this pie this week. My husband loves peanut butter, so this will be for two important men. Take care and bless you.
    Sarah Younker

  • Norma

    I don’t know you and I found out about your loss and I am so sorry. May God bless you and your family and keep you strong.

  • Magic of Spice

    This is my first time here, but many of my blogger friends have been paying tribute to your family. I would just like to send my condolences to you and your family. I wish you all healing and a bounty of beautiful memories.

  • Jazz

    Sounds like a great recipe! will try it this Friday! My heart goes out to you and your family during this sad time. God bless you.

  • Reese Darragh

    I am sorry to hear that. I know I can’t tell you “I know how you feel” cos I don’t and nobody does. All I can say is when my nana passed away 3 months ago, I took my time to grieve. Then took my time to heal. And finally come to the realization that our loved ones live on forever in our memory. If it helps, I am baking the pie this Friday to honor your love for your husband. My thoughts and prayers with you and your family.
    With all my love,
    Reese

  • Marisa

    This is my first visit to your blog (linked from Food in Jars). I’m so so sorry to read of your loss. Normally peanut butter pie is not on my radar, especially in the height of summer produce, but I’m making my grocery list right now. What a beautiful way for the friend and food community to celebrate Mikey.

  • Sarah

    Jennie,
    I was so heartbroken when I heard of your loss. I’ve been a long time follower, and have never commented. I’ve lost both of my parents, and all of my grandparents. My sister and brother have basically gone astray. I have a loving boyfriend, and great friends. Losing people you love is never easy. You have given me so much strength, and hope. I hope I can do the same for you. There is nothing you can say to make anyone feel better when they have lost someone. All I can say, is that my heart and soul feel for you. Just remember good times, and love your little ones. Thanks for posting through these tough times. I know Mike is looking out for you. I just know it. I’m not sure what I believe in, but I know my family is making sure I’m ok. I just know in my heart he is smiling at you. That’s all I can say. I hope I haven’t stepped out of bounds. It seems like everyone loves you very much.

  • Rochelle

    My heart goes out to you as I experienced the same thing almost 3 years ago. It will take time but the numbness and pain will lessen.
    My husband was a fan of dessert, any dessert. *smile*
    I’ll honor him and Mikey with homemade dessert.

  • Elies_Lie

    I’m sory for ur lost jennie…
    I pray God give comfort & strength for u & ur fam…
    Tq for sharing the recipe with us, I’ll definitely make it & let u know 🙂
    Be strong & God bless
    *Loves*

  • Sarah

    Hi Jennie,
    I came across your post on Twitter, it touched my heart and I’m sending you love across the water from the UK. I did make the Pie on Friday, all the family commented on the gorgeous creaminess. Thank you and your strength will carry you within the love of cooking. xx

  • Tina

    I am so sorry, you and your daughters are in my thoughts and in my prayers. Your tribute to Mikey is beautiful, thank you for the reminder of what is truly important.

  • Stacey

    Sending love to you and your family during these times. Holding those dear memories close to your heart keeps him with you at all times. So I raise my spatula to a man I never knew in person, but through the beautiful energy of your post, I know in spirit. Blessings to you all.

  • Lindsay

    Your truly are an inspiration. Thank you for reminding us all to stop and love the one we are with. Although I am late, I will be making a pie tonight. And look forward to sharing it with my boyfriend of one year. Today will be spent in contemplation.

  • Kim Larson

    Dear Jennifer,
    I cry for your loss, even though we are strangers to each other..being a wife and mother, I feel we share a common bond…I am so very deeply sorry for your loss, words cannot express how very very sorry I am. Prayers will prayed, pies will be made and I will not soon forget you, Mikey or your lovely tribute to him in this post.

  • Bill Hatch

    Your story has really touched me, and I’m amazed at your strength in handling it. I would like to offer condolences from me and my entire family. (who each has received an E-mail including your story and recipe) May the stores run out of Peanut Butter Pie supplies due to overwhelming responses. I hope all the best for you and your family in this trying time, and everytime I begin to take my wife for granted, I will remember how fleeting life can be. (this may sound odd, but) Thank you for sharing your story and allowing me to remember what is improtant in life! Take care and may you be blessed.

  • Wendi

    Oh, the tears here. My husband and I are on our 16th year as well.
    We try to explain to our children what a joy it is to be married to your best friend…, but I don’t think they really understand. I can tell from your post that you do understand.
    I will be praying for you, and cherishing my husband all the more, because you’ve made me realize that I don’t know how long our ‘forever’ will be.

  • Hanna Byscz

    Jennie; yesterday I read your recipe of the Creamy peanut butter pie and I made it today for my son, thinking of you. This cake is just wonderful. I wrote the recipe in my notebook and I’ll do it again for all special occasions.
    Thank you. My best thoughts, from France, are for you and your girls in this difficult time.

  • Julie M.

    Jennie, I just learned of this tragedy today. 🙁 I’m so very sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you during this tough time. If there’s anything at all that i can do to help, please don’t hesitate to ask.

  • Ellen

    Dear Jennifer,
    We haven’t met and that’s not important. I wanted to let you know how deeply sorry I am for your loss and I will say a special prayer with my husband and my daughter tonight for you and your girls. I will be making this pie for my family with you and your sweet family in mind. May God hold you in His hand and ease the burden in your hearts. The love you all shared will be with you forever.

  • The Ferret

    I’m sorry that the best I can do is add my caring and support to help you with the loss and I can only hope you have as many caring friends to be with you physically as you do online.
    This Friday I think i’ll give Bakerella’s Pie link a try and While I don’t know that a few tears won’t slip into it, i
    ll just reduce the salt instead.
    As well May i recommend the book “Heidegger and a Hippo Walk Through Those Pearly Gates” It’s not written as a book for grief counseling but when i lost my grandfather who I was very close too I found it did help if nothing else to make me smile.

  • Monica

    Thank you for sharing something so deeply personal and reflective. I cry every time I read this and the re-posts. I’m so so sorry for your loss, I can’t begin to imagine how you feel. Your story has really given me pause in my life and the ability to see more compassion from what I would consider my cynical view of the world. Again, I’m sorry for this event happening in your life and am sending you positive energy.
    xo

  • Minjia

    Dear, Jennifer
    Even though I barely know you, your personality shines through this post. You are so incredibly brave and everybody is here to support you. I’m only fifteen and I probably can’t relate to any emotions you’re feeling, but the fact that you’ve found love and loved so passionately is a feat in itself. Even though it’s past Friday, I’ll be making this pie and sharing it with my loved ones in memory of Mikey. There is never enough opportunities to show love. Keep on going strong Jennifer.

  • Amber

    I came across your blog by chance. YOur words are beautiful and I just wanted to let you know how truly sorry I am for your loss and your families. My thoughts and prayers are with you right now. May God comfort you in this time of sorrow.
    God Bless you all.

  • shari brooks

    heartbreak. This past weekend I made my first peanut butter pie in loving memory of your husband, a man whom I do not know but, i feel/felt the magnitude of your loss. Life is too short. By damn, I’m going to celebrate every moment and cherish my children, life, happiness. While we were eating the peanut butter pie, i felt as though I was spreading Mikey’s love. Keep strong and cloak yourself with the fondest loving memories of him— that will give you some strength to drift through this most difficult time.

  • Edwin McGee

    I’m a Lutheran pastor in California and was touched by your story. I made your pie for my Wednesday morning Bible Study (I know it’s not Friday, yet) and told them your story and told them all I loved them. May God’s Peace be with you and your girls.
    Ed

  • Kimby

    I found this post via a link on Paula’s (bell’alimento) and I can’t even begin to imagine your feelings — then, now, and in the coming weeks and months. Hugs to you and your family.

  • Calley