Ever have the feeling your best wasn't good enough...even when you know you gave it all you had? When can you feel good about just letting go?
That was the feeling I walked away with today. I've been a caretaker most of my life. I saw things kids should never see. I felt things kids should never feel. I've put up barriers to protect myself, but every now and then they come crashing down. These are good walls. Trust me. I've been through therapy. I've had my say and confronted the people who caused me pain. The walls are there because sometimes after you surrender to the situation, you need to shore yourself up to let the healing begin.
And through it all, I smile. It's is not a fool's smile, though. A co-worker once asked me many years ago how I stay so upbeat—I'm legendary for my chipper personality contrary to the blue mood I'm in at the moment. I still believe what I told him back then. There are two ways to wake up in the morning. In a good mood or a bad one. It seems a no-brainer which choice to make. If I don't hold out hope that each day has some good in it, why bother wake at all?
I know my life is so rich. I am aware of that every morning I go into my girls' room and gently wake them. The way the Virginia pops up in her crib, all sleepy-eyed and joyfully squeals "Mama" is better than a steaming cup of coffee. The smell of Isabella's morning breath. Well, call me crazy, but I've loved it ever since she was a baby.
So what does this all have to do with lentil ricotta "meatballs" you're wondering? Well, nothing...and everything. See, if I hadn't take a risk and tried the unthinkable then they wouldn't exist. The idea blossomed out of thrift. If you've been reading this blog for a while, you know my feelings about buying clean meat. The stuff free of antibiotics, added hormones and pasture-raised, the way cattle was meant to live. Well, that comes at a price of about $8 a pound here in New York City. And while I'm okay with that price and really believe it is fair, it means we don't eat meat every day. In fact, we only eat it once or twice a week as a main protein. More often, it's stretched out in dishes like a bolognese.
A few weeks ago I set out to do the unthinkable. I challenged myself to make a meat-free meatball that could match, if not rival, the tender, moist memory ingrained in my tastebuds from my regular beef and pork recipe. Well, this one is a keeper my friends. Look at the pictures if you need proof. It looks like a meatball. It smells like a meatball. Most importantly, it tastes like a meatball...and it's made with lentils.
I started out with a big pot of lentils on Monday for the Week of Eating In Challenge. Some went into lentil burgers. Yes, I know, I promised that recipe, and it is coming soon. I do have to tend to work, much as I'd rather be here all day long. Some more of the lentils are set aside to make these again. When I first set out on my mission, the goal was not to make a vegetarian version. It was to make a less expensive one with the same great taste. Organic lentils cost $1.39 a pound in bulk at my local healthfood store. You do the math. Now go buy some lentils. Prepare them using this recipe and let me know what you think. See you next week, and hopefully with some renewed strength.
Lentil-Ricotta "Meatballs"
makes about 18
Every step of the way I kept getting pleasantly surprised while making these. The real moment of truth was when I simmered them in some marinara sauce. I was worried they would fall apart, but they stood up to a good soaking to my sheer delight. I also recently discovered DeCecco organic kamut spaghetti. It's a whole grain pasta but doesn't have that earthy taste I dislike, so I highly recommend seeking it out—unless of course you make your pasta from scratch.
2 cups cooked lentils, pureed
2 large eggs, lightly beaten
2/3 cup plain breadcrumbs
1/2 cup fresh ricotta
1/4 cup grated Parmesan cheese
1 1/2 teaspoon chopped parsley
Salt and freshly ground pepper, to taste
Canola oil for frying
Marinara sauce, optional
Add all ingredients to a deep bowl. Mix very well, using hands or a wooden spoon. Cover and refrigerate for two hours or overnight.
When ready to cook, shape mixture into 1 1/2-inch balls. Heat about 1/2-inch of oil in a nonstick skillet over medium flame. Add shaped "meatballs" and cook until browned all around, turning only once. Transfer to a paper towel-lined plate and let excess drain off. Add to simmering marinara sauce if serving immediately, or store in a tightly covered container up to three days.
Note: If you're pressed for time or simply don't have prepared lentils you can use canned and I won't judge. Heck, we've all been there. I will caution, though, that you'll need to boost the flavor. While this isn't a tested tip, my guess is using seasoned breadcrumbs will help do the job. My Parmesan skillet croutons make excellent seasoned breadcrumbs—just give them a whirl in your food processor or mini-chopper.

Great recipe! We've been trying to cut out meat lately and also buying more from the good local butchers than the supermarket.
Are those green lentils you are using?
Posted by: Lazygiraffe | 02/26/2010 at 04:13 AM
Sounds like you need a big hug. Been thinking of you a ton lately!
Posted by: Erin Patterson | 02/26/2010 at 04:49 AM
Wow. Brilliant brilliant recipe. I can't wait to give these a whirl.
Posted by: MrsWheelbarrow | 02/26/2010 at 04:54 AM
Been looking forward to these. I almost guarantee I'll be making them for meatless Monday soon! Thanks! (and everyone gets the blues. I'm chipper too, and wrote a similar post called "Jennie's Got the Blues". Yes! The same name! So, I can tell you with authority: You'll feel better soon. :)
Posted by: Jenmenke | 02/26/2010 at 05:58 AM
Oh, dear. Hope things are better soon. These meatballs look like the perfect comfort food and I'm so impressed that you made them with lentils! Healthier and cheaper and I'm sure delicious.
Please know you are loved, Jennie.
Posted by: maggie | 02/26/2010 at 07:36 AM
WOW!
thank you so much for sharing this - i am always looking for filling, protein rich foods that my meat-eating family and i [the lone vegetarian] can enjoy together.
those look beautiful.
also, what a lovely post. joy is contagious. :)
Posted by: iamchanelle | 02/26/2010 at 11:32 AM
These look great...I've been cooking up a big rice cooker of brown rice, lentils and dried chickpeas...I'm the only one who eats it. I bet everyone would like these, though. I remember my mom spending an afternoon with several boxes of soy burger mix concocting a burger which tasted like a mcdonald's hamburger, so our friends' and their parents would stop complaining about what they were served at our house :) She laughed at herself years later for that.
Posted by: Nicole Pelton | 02/26/2010 at 02:46 PM
We sounds so much alike. I'm the one who's always so upbeat that people mistakenly think I don't have any problems. Not quite. I'm also a caretaker...mother hen. I hope that whatever you're going through will work itself out soon. I think we all sometimes need to be reminded that we can give our all, but there are just some things that are beyond our control. Big hugs to you.
This lentil-ricotta meatball recipe sounds divine! I tried something similar from Donna Hay magazine and it was a disaster. Yours sound better from the get-go. I'll have to try it. I've been eating less and less meat these days. Like you, I like to eat clean meat, but it's not without a pretty price tag.
Posted by: Joy | 02/27/2010 at 01:42 AM
Ha, and I came over to your blog looking for cake. This sounds really good. Would baking or boiling them work?
And {hugs}! You are typically so bright and sunny. We all have our down moments and days (weeks...months?) I hope things are looking up.
Posted by: kim/hormone-colored days | 02/27/2010 at 07:03 AM
This is my first visit to Jennie's Kitchen and I'm wow-ed by the lentil meatballs. I love pasta and I love incorporating veggies and beans into the dishes. This is one I will definitely try. Faux (but better for you) spaghetti and meatballs.
Posted by: Joan Nova | 02/27/2010 at 10:25 AM
and thats why you've always been The sunshine of my Life from the day you were born! lov u
Posted by: your biggest fan always | 02/27/2010 at 11:20 AM
A meatless meatball? I have got to give these a try because they look outstanding. Thanks so much for sharing this recipe.
Posted by: Eliana | 02/27/2010 at 01:28 PM
o.m.g you are a genius. I am totally with you on the $$$ of meat... I am all about healthy meat too but its just too expensive to buy it everyday! But lentils... they are cheap and can feed an army! I have never even thought of making lentil meatballs but now I know exactly what to make next time I run out of meat and just have my pot of lentils on hand!! I usually make lentil burgers, which are great, but the lentil meatballs with the addition of pasta and a red sauce sounds phenomenal!
And good for you for putting your mind to creating something and coming up with these!
Posted by: Gaby | 02/27/2010 at 02:04 PM
Being Italian American I never thought I'd drool over meatballs made out of lentils...yet, I am. these look really, really, really delicious.
Posted by: Nancy@TheSensitivePantry | 02/27/2010 at 02:13 PM
Jennie, these meatballs look absolutely delicious! I'll have to give this recipe a try.
Posted by: kamran siddiqi | 02/27/2010 at 02:23 PM
Oh wow these look fantastic. Don't pay attention to Ms. Brescia, her claim is ridiculous.
You're clearly a talented cook who is happy to give credit where credit is due. While it's likely that someone somewhere in the world has come up with a similar idea before I highly doubt that you stole this recipe.
Posted by: Naomi | 02/27/2010 at 02:25 PM
I think your recipe is genius. I can hardly wait to give it a try. I choose to focus on what matters....our love of food and sharing. Keep up the great work.
Posted by: Anne | 02/27/2010 at 02:55 PM
Jennie, I'm so sorry you are dealing with this troll, even worse than I am. Know that he IS a troll, and NOT Louise Brescia OR serious eats at all.
Posted by: Hannah | 02/27/2010 at 03:50 PM
What an amazing recipe!! I would not have thought lentils to meatballs... Simply wonderful!
Your blog, your recipes, and simply your whole site is fantastic. I will definitely back for more.
Posted by: Janet | 02/27/2010 at 04:06 PM
I am off to make this with the leftover Ricotta that I made for the manicotti. My husband raved about the manicotti and says it is his new favorite meal. The crepes will take a bit of practice though. I am excited for my kids to eat more lentils!
Posted by: chris | 02/27/2010 at 04:19 PM
I'm also trying to be more mindful of the meat I'm cooking with and putting into my body but also can't afford to buy it very often at NYC prices. Thanks for sharing such a thoughtfully crafted recipe, Jennie. The "meatballs" look delicious!
Posted by: Michelle @ Taste As You Go | 02/27/2010 at 04:25 PM
I am here to support you, and so happy to do that. In the meantime, you've shared a marvelous recipe and a little of your personal story (which isn't always easy). I applaud you on all levels, and hope that the nastiness that has ensued will one day cause you to laugh instead of cringe (as it is clearly waged by a lunatic). You are a great writer, a wonderful cook and I must admit the picture you paint of your mornings with your girls speaks the loudest to me. Keep up the delicious work and forget the Chiffonades of the world.
Best,
Casey
Posted by: TasteStopping | 02/27/2010 at 04:43 PM
These meatballs are so awesome. I must try this soon. I've never seen this kind of meatballs in other website. I was thinking the other day to make one but this is truly your original work.
Posted by: Divina | 02/27/2010 at 04:50 PM
These look amazing... Love your recipe! I was actually contemplating making some homemade pasta tomorrow, and I'm thinking these would be the perfect compliment! I have been trying to make a lot more meatless meals during the week, and these "meatballs" are perfect!
Posted by: Jen @ My Kitchen Addiction | 02/27/2010 at 06:09 PM
Awesome! I never thought about making veggie meatballs. you are a genius!
Posted by: Maria | 02/27/2010 at 06:27 PM